I kind of don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t want to be a bad person but I’m just convinced I am. I just want to sit in my room and cry and never come out so I don’t risk hurting anyone. I just want to feel normal
My therapist used to tell me, if you really wanted to be bad would you be on this app and crying about it? Of course not, you would go out and do something bad.
we all do, and we will some day ! but until then, we have to remain hopeful. it gets hard, and its very challenging to accept the uncertainty of it all, but we’ll push through and we’ll make it out on top of ocd!
Feeling this right now too. It is helpful to know I’m not alone in it.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I’ve been there multiple times before and it really is so hard to tell yourself your not a bad person let alone convince yourself because of the thoughts your having. They make you feel like your a terrible person but let me tell you, Your not! A terrible person would go out and act on the things they are thinking about and not feel remorse or sympathy. You feel so upset for thinking the way you do. Someone who is horrible wouldn’t care. I know it’s hard to try to think positive especially when your going through so much! But don’t let your OCD! Overrule you. This is your body, your mind and your life! You have OCD but OCD isn’t you. You got this friend! I know you do! We will get through it together 💗
Hey Mpopla28! I understand this feeling. As a member of the OCD community, and as someone who works closely with OCD sufferers, I can tell you almost all of us feel this way. We feel a greater sense of responsibility. and a consistent, nagging guilt surrounding our every move! Super common. I would encoruage you to try some non-engagement on this one. Respond to those thoughts that you're a terrible person! Say, "maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm capable of horrible things, maybe I'm not." The time you spend in fear about possibly doing something "bad," is time you're losing! OCD steals so much time from us on a daily basis. Don't let it win <3 Sending you so much love!
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
i feel miserable, i don't know who to turn to anymore. i had very bad periods in my life where i felt depressed and suicidal for years but nothing compares to this, not only i feel depressed but my ocd is at an all time high. idk what to do i Just want to cry. i feel like I'm a monster and it feels reasonable to see myself this way. im a horrible person who doesn't deserve any of the good things in my life
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