I kind of don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t want to be a bad person but I’m just convinced I am. I just want to sit in my room and cry and never come out so I don’t risk hurting anyone. I just want to feel normal
My therapist used to tell me, if you really wanted to be bad would you be on this app and crying about it? Of course not, you would go out and do something bad.
we all do, and we will some day ! but until then, we have to remain hopeful. it gets hard, and its very challenging to accept the uncertainty of it all, but we’ll push through and we’ll make it out on top of ocd!
Feeling this right now too. It is helpful to know I’m not alone in it.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I’ve been there multiple times before and it really is so hard to tell yourself your not a bad person let alone convince yourself because of the thoughts your having. They make you feel like your a terrible person but let me tell you, Your not! A terrible person would go out and act on the things they are thinking about and not feel remorse or sympathy. You feel so upset for thinking the way you do. Someone who is horrible wouldn’t care. I know it’s hard to try to think positive especially when your going through so much! But don’t let your OCD! Overrule you. This is your body, your mind and your life! You have OCD but OCD isn’t you. You got this friend! I know you do! We will get through it together 💗
Hey Mpopla28! I understand this feeling. As a member of the OCD community, and as someone who works closely with OCD sufferers, I can tell you almost all of us feel this way. We feel a greater sense of responsibility. and a consistent, nagging guilt surrounding our every move! Super common. I would encoruage you to try some non-engagement on this one. Respond to those thoughts that you're a terrible person! Say, "maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm capable of horrible things, maybe I'm not." The time you spend in fear about possibly doing something "bad," is time you're losing! OCD steals so much time from us on a daily basis. Don't let it win <3 Sending you so much love!
Second night of breaking down crying, i am tired of my head. My head hurts, i feel like a horrible person. I don’t want to do anything, i don’t want to go anywhere and i don’t know who i am anymore. I’m scared of what my life will become. I never thought i’d say this but i just don’t see the point in living anymore, i don’t care about what happens to me. I don’t feel anything but anxiety and fear. My life is horrible.
Really struggling to not think I’m a bad person. Part of me is rational, but I keep going back. I don’t know what to do. How to keep functioning like this.
I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do
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