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- 2y
Anxety abt Revealing my relationship to parents
Advise (help) me please. My SO and I are young and my parents have always been strict about dating " within the culture". They gave me a very traumatic and emotionally abusive and tense childhood where I can honestly say I felt so entrapped by there strictness and often felt shame. That shame now seeps into all parts of me, and their strictness made me an incredibly anxious person. When I got together with my bf, we were especially young and surprise surprise he was not from my culture. All these years I've kept it hidden from my parents. They're the rason behind my ROCD. I just know it and it has so heavily impacted my relationship you have no idea. It took me years to say I love you, I am emotionally numb all the time, and now, he (understandably) wants my parents to know so we don't have have everything be so secretive and tense but I just get so anxious about it then I honestly can't even think and it makes me avoid the situation. I promised I would do better in telling my parents and I started off with my mom bc my dad's a real piece of work. And despite that we've been dating for a while, I am trying to break in the idea that I'd like to "start" dating him bc she doesn't know how long we've been together. But it just gets me so anxious because she belittles and takes away my sense of independence and growth. I have all these intrusive thoughts and immense anxiety behind their reactions to my boyfriend and his looks etc. Etc. Bc they are such judgemental people especially bc he is not from our culture. I can tell it's taking a toll on my boyfriend bc he just wants me to act on all my talk and I'm failing us. How do I overcome such immense anxiety? How do I not let these stupid thoughts get to me? And overall, how the hell do I become stronger?