Does anyone else feel like no matter how much you recover from OCD that those random panic/ ocd attacks always feel scary like it’s the first time? Like I feel so defeated when I have them. Like I’ve been through this for years and it’s still scary to me. It’s like a bully that never gets old. And don’t attach a theme to it 🤦🏾♀️.
Right! One week you are like! Sheesh I feel so good! These thoughts are dumb and you tell yourself to remind you how good it feels in these normal days THEN BOOM OCD comes and it’s like the good days didn’t matter and you are back believing the thoughts. 🤧
@Omarion0322 exactly where i’m at rn with my mind and i hate it cause this was subsided for like a week and half and it would come but i worked through it fine and it was gone but now it wants to attack
I can relate to these moments. There are times when I sit listening to the BS in my head or I can make the decision to let it play in the background while I go about my day. I accept the uncertainty that if something is going to happen, then let it but until it does, I have things to do!!!
@Dee C Periodddddd! Love that
@Dee C I need to keep telling myself this! ♥️
all the time
What keeps me going is pushing through the days in knowing there are good days ahead! It’s hard but distract yourself as much as you can! I watch movies n shows or go workout
@Omarion0322 i’ve been knitting, painting, walking, watching tv, even journaling which helps a lot
yes:(
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.
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