- Username
- Melody2022
- Date posted
- 248d ago
- Harm OCD
Really bad flare up
I always notice my ocd gets worse when my boyfriend is out of town, but literally my brain is convinced I’m going to act out on my thoughts even when I know I don’t want to, but it’s making me feel careless as if I’d do it anyways. They’d be easier to process if it wasn’t for my brain making these thoughts seem like demands. I’m trying to resist compulsions and to not give thoughts meaning but it’s super hard, sometimes I just go into a compulsion even when I know it’s one. My brain is convinced that I’ll go insane in the future and hurt someone and it makes things feel temporary and I hate how strong of a sensation this is. I just started birth control so I hope this is just hormonal related for now, and will be easier to manage moving forward..