Don’t think I can do it

Sorry you’re going through this. I commend you on ceasing the compulsion to google. In that, give yourself a pat on the back. Unless you have a professional diagnosis about the ‘heart inflammation’ then you’re self diagnosing. I won’t give you reassurance but will say - you are not your thoughts and feelings are not facts. That’s what ocd wants is certainty and realistically no one is 100% sure of anything. It’s as good a time as any to lean towards the uncertainty. I’m hoping this helps you, even a little bit. You got this. Btw, I’m going for my second booster tomorrow.👍🏼🙏🏽✌🏽

I went through this and ended up never getting vaxxed. Ended up getting COVID recently but way after a lot of my vaxxed and boosted friends so not sure if it made a difference that I didn’t. The whole COVID/ vaccine thing is hard because you already have OCD and it’s an issue that almost everyone has had to deal with, fear of the disease, fear of the shots. My therapist told me, get vaxxed or don’t, (because I was so scared to not get vaxxed, too. )But then just accept your decision whatever it is and move on. Maybe you get COVID from not getting it. Maybe you get a heart issue from getting it. Maybe, maybe not. But you’re going to do whatever you decide and move on and not worry about what might or might not happen

just respond with “maybe I’ll get heart inflammation, maybe I won’t, we’ll see”. You must be willing to take the risk