i cant act normal like nothings happened.

i’m only 15 i cant. i cant. i don’t even know if it’s real event ocd. it feels like massive weights on me. i cant live just acting like everything’s normal. like i haven’t made mistakes. if people knew the mistakes i’ve made because i didn’t know they were wrong everyone would hate me. i don’t deserve my relationship. i don’t deserve my friendships. i don’t deserve anything. i just want to cry and hold friends and my partner but i’d feel guilty because i feel like the worst person i know. i don’t know how i can just “act normal” and “leave stuff in the past” and “not confess” “move forward and focus in present “ :(

Username: TabeaTabea

Date posted: 1y ago

I know how you feel same with me I'm 14 and I think I'm the worst person bc I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. I feel so guilty

Username: Anonymous123456789101112Anonymous123...

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey, I know this feeling all too well. I felt the same at 15, and I wish I could go back now and tell myself it will all be ok. Everyone makes mistakes when they are young, especially when you didn’t know any better! Just try and be compassionate to yourself, and know that you are not alone. Ocd is such a debilitating disorder to live with, it turns common mistakes into unforgivable crimes. It doesn’t mean it’s true, it’s just what your brain is telling you. I hope you are ok.

Username: Narwhalxoxo Narwhalxoxo

Date posted: 1y ago

I know it’s hard, but trust me when I say that you are not alone <3 the present moment is all that exists, this moment is all we have :) try as hard as you can to not ruminate or confess, I know it’s hard trust me, I deal with this everyday and it is so hard, but you can get through it stay strong and don’t give in to the compulsions, you are not your past 💗

Username: Narwhalxoxo Narwhalxoxo

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m the same age as you and I deal with this all the time, it’s so hard but don’t give up you’ve got this 🫶

Username: anonymous700anonymous700

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m 26 and I still feel like that. I t you get professional help if you’re not already doing so! I’m so sorry you feel this way. It’s a terrible and debilitating experience to live in. There are days where you will feel good and there are days where you want the world to end. But as cheesy and stupid as it sounds: take it one day at a time. Take life in steps. Take baby steps. Even if you don’t know what those steps are. Make those mistakes! Let people hate you! Not everyone is going to like you and that’s something I am realizing now at 26. It’s hard because that’s all I seek is validation and acceptance but you need to learn to love yourself! Because if you don’t, you’re life will be miserable. So do things that you can that make you happy. And if you don’t know what makes you happy, you have plenty of time to figure it out. It’s hard to focus on the present when you have monsters in your head controlling your emotions and l basically your life. I hope you find the peace and right coping skills to at least learn to maintain these thoughts.

Username: chamomilegirl

Date posted: 4y ago

I have Real event ocd about things I did as a kid at 12/13. It’s killing me because it really happened but I feel like a different person now completely. my actions disgust me and it makes me feel like i don’t deserve to be alive. I constantly have flashbacks about the events and it sends me into a state of panic, I feel as if my younger self has traumatized my older self. i’m so scared that things I did make this true, i really am a bad person, even though i’m an adult now and would never never ever do that again. I’m so scared. All I want is to be a good person but I keep remembering gross things I did and now I feel like the biggest fraud to friends and family and everything good in my life.

"Pure" OCD

Username: Anonymous444444

Date posted: 1y ago

What if our Real Event really is bad?

I know this is such a typical OCD thought, but I really feel mine is. Without going into too much detail feel like I basically SA'd my ex without meaning to and got away with it. I feel like I need to confess to everyone, including ny current gf, but I'm worried people will never look at me the same again. I'm trying so hard with ERP but I feel like I'm just using it to avoid confronting what I've done. I feel like I'm going to get cancelled or thrown in jail and my life is going to fall apart. I feel so guilty and sorry. I want to be a good person.

Real Events OCD

Username: hellokittygirl

Date posted: 35w ago

real event ocd flare up

how do u guys deal with it i feel like throwing up and crying from guilt. i don’t wanna get into what memories i’m thinking of, but they have to do with sexuality as a child. i can’t stop thinking that i had bad intentions and hurt someone because i was a few years older. i was doing fine and this came out of nowhere. i keep thinking what if it’s not ocd and i’m just using ocd as an excuse for my rightfully had guilt. i literally feel paralyzed and debilitatingly shameful. i don’t know what to do. i talked to my friends about it and they kept telling me experiences like that are normal, but i feel like an unreliable narrator or something. i just wanna cry and cry.

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