BIPOC with OCD

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I wonder if something I did in the past actually happened the way I remember it

I’m constantly bothered by things not being in the right place, the right order, or grouped in the right way

I’m convinced that what I do or think can effect a real event and will prove that I’m a bad person

I experience anxiety and discomfort any time something doesn’t feel “just right”

I’m bothered by specific thoughts, and I use mental actions to “get rid” of them

I obsess over something that happened in my past and what it could have led to

I can’t help but think I’ll intentionally kill myself, even thought I don’t want to die

I experience anxiety while obsessing over the meaning of life or the purpose of existence

I have continual doubts about my sexuality and spend a lot of time trying to analyze my feelings 

I’m overly afraid of becoming sick or getting someone else sick

I need to know if I really have a desire to transition my gender or if I want a transgender partner

I constantly question and analyze how I feel in my most important relationships

I feel unable to stop focusing on normal bodily functions in myself or someone else

I constantly worry that I have offended a higher power or done something morally wrong

I have to keep checking for new health symptoms to prevent pain, suffering, or death

I experience excessive fears of directly or inadvertently causing harm to others

I’m very bothered by thoughts that  I want to, or might, do something inappropriate with a child

I’m a new parent, and I can’t help but think of my newborn getting hurt due to my thoughts or actions

The hardest part for me with being in the ocd cycle is that if feel like I’ve lost myself or that I’m not me anymore. Anyone else relate?