My harm ocd is coming in SO strong right now. Even when I agree with the thoughts, it’s making it so much worse when I’m used to that making it better. It’s feeling like it is inevitable and that I want to or need to act on it. What is scaring me so much is it feels like I’m having to hold myself back! And that the more this happens, I will not be able to hold myself back anymore. Please help!
Yeah, it’s tough. It’s trying to stay alive. You can do this! It’s all false
@Jordan mat Thank you! Of course it feels so different this time. But I probably say that every time 😂
We all do lol
I know how you feel! But the more that feeling of needing to hold yourself back happens then the more you will get used to it rather than having anything bad happening. You got this!
@7Eraser Yah. It’s so hard because now it just feels like it’s my destiny or that I want it to happen or that I may as well get it over with. I hate this.
Do you also feel like you’ve lost your empathy for others?! That’s a big thing for me right now and I’m not crying constantly with the thoughts so my brain is like this time is different it’s not ocd. 😔
That's where I'm at man, I feel as though I'm slowly sliding out of it but damn
@A person 1 I’m trying to get out of it…the longer it last the more crazy I feel. Like I’ve literally lost myself and my empathy for others and it is the worst feeling
@Anonymous987 Yes. I just feel like I don’t care anymore. It’s so upsetting because I am so empathetic. I also start feeling I’m destined to just harm someone or that i should just get it over with. It’s so scary.
@Catlove9 I'm trying to practice self compassion, I know it's a fassad my brain is coming up with to protect me so by building some self love maybe then I can start feeling others. All the while I'm trying to build compassion for others. Even if it's presently absent, it's still apart of you I promise that. Hang in there we'll get back to ourselves I'm positive of that. But yeah it's a terrible feeling
@Catlove9 That’s EXACTLY how I feel. It just feels so evil.
@A person 1 I love this. It’s a great way to approach it.
@Anonymous987 It totally feels evil. I feel like Ursula from the little mermaid
Ask yourself how long and how many times you’ve felt this way. Have you ever given in? It’s all false to get a reaction. Take confidence that you’re still here because the real you is stronger than your thoughts
@Jordan mat I do try that. And then OCD is like “this time is different “ or “you’re finally going to give into your urge” or “you have now changed and want this.”
What’s your thought??
@Nacio That I have to go out and harm people. Like I don’t have a choice.
@Catlove9 Oh man that’s deep… is that a theme of ocd??
@Nacio I think it’s part of harm ocd. I think it’s very common.
@Catlove9 It’s crazy how anxiety workers right ..😭😭😭
@Nacio It’s absolutely awful.
I know this is old but oh my GOD I cant tell you how much I relate to this. These are my exact words to my therapist. How are you now? Do you feel like it got better? I'm in the same boat right now and I'm miserable. Would love an update <3 I hope things are better
@sillygoose1012 Hi! It still comes in waves. I sometimes think that’s because I’m unknowingly giving into compulsions. It’s a horrible feeling.
@Catlove9 Do you still feel like you have the resist and hold yourself back? I have the experience while driving (through of yanking steering wheel and crashing car) and I have to physically hold myself back. feel like I've gotten so close a few times that it scares me into not driving/being in cars
@Catlove9 I'm so sorry you're still dealing with this though :( are you in therapy?
@sillygoose1012 I sometimes still do get it! And I am in therapy but I need to be better with applying the tools. I struggle with that still.
I read your post and I’m struggling with the same thoughts, particularly in regards to needing to act on thoughts to get it over with. Do you also feel a sense of shame that you would even have these thoughts? I feel ashamed that I would even “dare” have harmful thoughts of harming people I love, which then may trigger self harm thoughts.
@Anonymous Yes shame and guilt is very common. Makes you doubt your morals, it's the very nature of the disorder. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-to-deal-with-guilt-and-shame-from-ocd
To reply to both of you, I feel the exact same way sometimes. Especially with “just to get it over with.” It’s terrifying.
Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it
Harm ocd urges Does anyone else have such strong harm ocd urges regarding your obsession that it literally feels like you’re holding back from doing it? I understand that harm ocd does indeed include urges, but can they rlly feel THAT real? Like at any time I could just “decide” to do it?
I am struggling right now with intrusive harm urges. They feel real and it feels like I am going to act any second. It feels like I have to hold myself back, which is a scary thoughts. I am trying so hard not to compulse, but does anyone have tips on what they do in these situations?
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