ILikeMyself
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AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
I can love you as a friend
ChamBChamB
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- 2y ago
I love you as a fellow ocd suffering compatriot.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
I feel this. I never really have anyone I can call. I don’t think if I were to pass i would be missed of remembered much, not even by my family. But I’ve learned to be good on my own so far. And tbh I’ve learned to love myself a lot to the point where I know I’m gonna be ok. Butttttr what keeps me going is hope. I have so much hope that one day I’m going to have a partner and a big friend group. That makes me excited for the future
ILikeMyself ILikeMyself
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- 2y ago
I'm working on having the friend group but I just lost my would be fiance in August after 6 years together. I pushed him away out of fear and he doesn't want me anymore.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
@ILikeMyself That’s ok hun. I also struggle with perfectionism a lot and have pushed people away, but here’s how I see it: I want to be with someone when I’m healthy. Only healthy people can have a healthy relationship. TRUST MR girl when i say this that there are plenty of fish in the sea. Once you get better, your going to find at least 5 versions of that man lol. Don’t give up, it’s gonna be ok, I promise
ILikeMyself ILikeMyself
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- 2y ago
@Anonymous Thank you so much
Erin PErin P
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- 2y ago
Perfectism can make you feel unlovable. It lies. Do you have parents who love you?
ILikeMyself ILikeMyself
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Not in the way I needed them to
Erin PErin P
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@ILikeMyself I’m sorry that’s the case.
Erin PErin P
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@ILikeMyself Can you accept the level of love they can give you as love?
ILikeMyself ILikeMyself
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@Erin P I have accepted that my parents will never change. But I think I unconsciously transferred all of those expectations to my ex partner.
Erin PErin P
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- 2y ago
@ILikeMyself Sounds like you are very insightful. I hope you can he kind to yourself and know that you are lovable.
ILikeMyself ILikeMyself
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I can't handle making mistakes. I sabotaged the relationship because I no longer thought our origin story was perfect and our fights made me fear the future and I made up all these scenarios in my head about him taking away my kids in a divorce down the line. It was crazy but I couldn't stop. I had to physically leave to my parents house to calm down. He didn't want couples therapy. But would've if I had waited 9 months until after his school but I got scared I couldn't deal with the anxiety that long and tried to force him .
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