Please help. I am struggling.

My Harm OCD is out of control. I’m trying so hard to keep living my life, but it’s scaring me even more. It’s starting to feel more real. It’s feeling like I’m right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and I’m now this person who is going to harm someone. I’m at work because I’m supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I don’t know what to do.

Harm OCD

Username: IdyotIdyot

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm so sorry you're going through this too. It's really hard dealing with the thoughts, especially when everything starts to become a trigger. I'm also dealing with this and it does get easier over time but I know how hard it is to accept that. You're doing the right thing by not isolating yourself, even if it feels wrong. Try and let the thoughts be there without engaging, but if that's too hard try and focus on something else like breathing or counting. You're not alone, we're all struggling with this illness.

Username: Jak71Jak71

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello, I am suffering badly too 😭 keep trying to remind myself the feelings and fear etc Diminish after a while. I am receiving cbt and erp early days but hopeful x

Username: brittanyljohnsonbrittanyljoh...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

It will pass!!! take a walk and 10 deep breaths. I know the feeling it’s scary but it will pass!!!

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

Next time you get a thought do nothing don’t engage with it don’t do any compulsions physical or mental just carry on as normal as if it weren’t there even if you feel anxious. Anxiety cent hurt you. When you stop interacting with intrusive thoughts & compulsions the fear will feel less real trust me! I know it’s not easy and the fear will still be there and the intrusive thoughts but it will be easier to deal with. Over time the thoughts won’t show up as much. Hope this helps please give it a try. You’re a good person and deserve happiness.

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

I appreciate everyone’s feedback. I feel like I’m just getting worse and I’m so much closer to acting. It feels like I have no control, and it’s super scary.

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 It also is starting to feel like I want it.

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 Think of an exposure which is the least scariest to start off with hope this helps!

Username: anonymous974anonymous974

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 I RELATE SO MUCH. It’s like our brain is tricking us into thinking that we actually want to do it or that we will enjoy it. It feels like we will lose control. You are not alone we will get through this. You just kinda need to sit with the thought and go about your day normally. 💕

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

@anonymous974 I am trying this but I must be doing something wrong because the anxiety just keeps increasing and so do the urges. It feels like I cannot handle it.

Username: IdyotIdyot

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 You're not doing anything wrong, it's extremely hard and takes time. I've been in the process of recovery for 3 months now and I still struggle. Even now I have panic attacks but they come and go quicker with practice. Learning to accept the thoughts is genuinely horrifying and it's so so so hard to ignore. OCD is like having a horror movie playing in your head 24/7 and it's really hard to ignore! But with time and practice it'll be easier to just ignore it and eventually tune it out. Be kind and patient with yourself You're going through something extraordinarily difficult and you're doing great even if it doesn't feel like it now.

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

@Idyot I really appreciate you saying this. It just feels so weird and scary and I don’t even know how to explain it. It just feels like I’m getting worse and turning into what I fear.

Username: Janiqua G.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

HARM OCD

I have horrific harm ocd towards myself and my son. I’m so sad and distressed by it. I cry often because I feel like a complete monster. The thoughts just won’t stop. I have issues with other themes as well but harm is really the main one that beats me down!!! I was doing okay. but the tragedy in TX has triggered me and I am really suffering! Does medication help? I’m trying to avoid compulsions but I believe I have mental compulsions as well. I’m just over it!!! This is not a way to live!

Username: Rydder

Date posted: 31w ago

Harm OCD

Hello, my name is Rydder, I’ve been having OCD my whole life and I’ve been able to handle my thoughts, but lately the past 3 months have been a wild ride! I went from court to court after 2 years of issues with the system, now that it is over I am scared about my well being, I’ve been having very bad intrusive thoughts lately about hurting myself or others, and it’s even making me hunch over in bed shaking and crying everyday because I’m not that type of person…. The mornings are so tuff I don’t even want to make it to work anymore, I’ve even called crisis lines because of my thoughts of hurting myself or other people with sharp objects, I just want to feel okay again! If anyone else has these thoughts please let me know and how to manage because I’m at the point where I call out to much and may become fired if I do!

Username: carol.xxx

Date posted: 15w ago

harm ocd please respond its typed properly - sorry

I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if I’m just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and I’m struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.

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