things keep popping up in my mind that are “evidence” that i’m gay. things i saw, felt, and did when i was young. like REALLY young. i don’t choose to have these thoughts,, i feel like my brain is bringing them up and telling me that because of these things and me doing these things, i’m gay. i don’t know how to handle this.

(Although worth noting you can never be 100% sure of anything, so we’ll say I’m 99% sure I’m not gay lol)

I want to get to that point so bad. i want to get to the point where i can live with potentially being gay. i know my parents and family will still love me, it just wouldn’t be the same. i’m not saying they’re homophobic, they just don’t support it and if i were to be gay it would crush them. i don’t want to be an outsider or hated by my family. i cant live with that. how can i accept the uncertainty of that? ugh

Okay so yeah my parents are the same way. They’re not homophobic and they would still love me, but like you said, they’re not necessarily the type to go to a pride parade. I still managed to accept the possibility but it took a lot of work. Just please start your exposures ASAP. It’ll take some work but it works faster than you might expect! I believe in you :)

This totally happened to me with the childhood stuff. I came to the conclusion that kids are innocent and honestly don’t know what sexuality is. They just have crushes on the people they have crushes on until like middle school and high school age when they start to learn about sex. You’re so not alone and it feels good to know I’m not the only one at least.

I honestly feel the same way, now that I think about it I remember I went on an online site game when I was really little like probably 8-9 and like dated girls for like a day. I thought it was normal but kinda weird. Now that I’ve thought about it it’s torturing me. I keep thinking I enjoyed it. Now I’m careful with my words when I’m w female friends because I don’t wanna say something that makes me feel further gay like words like “babe,” or anything complimentary yk. I also don’t have any attraction to guys and I’m scared it’ll remain that way. And every girl I see I automatically think I like her. It’s really taunting but we got this

Ugh dude this happens to me all the time. Kinda thought I was the only one lol. I freak out about how I wanted to impress the popular girls so they’d be my friend, how I once pretended to be a boy on club penguin and dated a girl for a whole two minutes *gasp* when I was eight, how I’ve thought girls were cool and pretty before. But I sat with the discomfort, did my exposures, accepted the worst case scenario. If I’m gay so what? My family will still love me, my friends will still love me, and I’ll be okay. It was only after accepting that I could live with being gay, that I realized that I’m 100% not gay.

what do you do for exposures?? i usually watch shows, videos, movies and stuff and also if something triggers me i just dive into whatever that is haha.

I do basically the same! I read gay books, watch coming out videos, talk to lesbians, and reading gay blogs. Just make sure you do it consistently :)

I had a lot of “evidence” popping in my head for a long time. There was a point also where anywhere I looked at my OCD would go “that’s gay” “that shirt is gay” “everything is gay”. I’ve never thought of it as a bad thing and I accept myself no matter how I identify, which was definitely a hard place to get to, but it was worth the journey. What I’ve learned from this is that OCD wants to make everything a big deal.