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same with the family members. It’s just such an INSTANT mood kill and takes a huge toll on me
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@mohelien that’s great thanks for sharing
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Some of us are scared of the unknown and death is unknown. I went through the same thing and now it doesn't bother me how it used. Still get some thoughts about it here and there and it upsets me if I'm emotionally down. One thing that eventually helped me when I got over it was joking about it like "yeah we'll have to die doesn't mean we actually will" now some will say that is avoidance but it really helped me moving on
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Thanks for the replies
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I had this to, I used the Bible to help me and eventually God healed me. what I say is you know it’s okay to be fearful but I know God will never leave me or forsake me. instead of thinking of death and how much you fear it, live life like the thoughts are not there, live with love and hope that there are good times, focusing on the good memories and good times I’ve had has helped me escape my brain. Whenever you get past it, ocd will get mad- I know cause it happens to me but what I do is invision it as someone I don’t like yelling at me, trying to take my joy and happiness away. Life is short, focusing on death, the bad things and worrying (I’ve learned) will just take take and take. You’ve got this stay strong!!
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Somebody told me the first couple of year’s of Having OCD is tough but after ten year’s. It get’s a little better.
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I’m scared to death of dying and about the unknown.
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Well shit I just started ^^^ ????♀️???. Here’s to the age of 40
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Me too Stacy. I have suicidal stuff and then panic about dying ??
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Guess there’s need to worry until I’m closer to when I’m going to die.
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So I've had OCD since I was a child. Like really young. The first intrusive thought I can remember was when I was 5. It just keeps getting worse and lately they've been making me physically ill or throwing me into extreme panic attacks again ( ones where I can't move my body ) the other night I thought God was trying to kill me because I was thinking about ending myself from OCD+ life issues but in reality I was just having a panic attack😭😭it affects me daily. It gets a little better with therapy but I don't see therapy coming into my life any time soon and I'm not even sure if I would want to go (for multiple reasons). To wrap this up if you have severe ocd can you tell me what it's like?? I don't want to label anything without proper research and hearing others perspectives. Thank you!! <3 (My profile says all of my subtypes if that helps any)
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Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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