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- 6y
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- 6y
Intrusive thoughts are suposed to be the oposite of you!! Your not lesbian and you know it!! It just all anxiety and ocd!! These are all fake thoughts and feelings! You know deep down who you are! The fact that the thoughts are so distressing and unwanted are just prove that you are straight! Go see a doctor!! Medication helps a lot!!
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- 6y
thank you a lot, I’ll keep all of this in mind. just seems impossible to look at boys or girls the same. I can’t see any therapists or doctors because I’d have to tell my family first but I can’t because they would just translate it as I’m gay and they’re super homophobic and won’t understand that it’s just ocd.
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- 6y
i totally agree. the phrase “you don’t choose who you love” gives me SO much anxiety because that means i have no control over it. but i guess that’s what i need to accept; that i don’t have control over it. the worst part is that i feel like my brain is FORCING me to be lesbian, even though i really do not want to for so many reasons. but again, i need to accept that uncertainty. MAYBE i’m gay and MAYBE you’re gay. we’ll never know 100% and that’s ok, we don’t have to. we just have to take it day by day!!
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- 6y
also, i’m in the same boat as you. completely. i haven’t told my parents either and i’m so afraid to because i don’t want them to think that it means i’m gay. it kills me not to tell them, but i really think they’d take it the wrong way. i can just imagine how the conversation would go and i just have a feeling that they won’t understand that this doesn’t mean i’m gay,,, it’s just my brain. i completely understand what you’re going through.
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- 15w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- 15w
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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- 12w
just crying cause i feel like im never going to recover and just have to be lesbian, even tho i love my boyfriend so much. thoughts don’t even give me anxiety anymore idk what to do, im just so done, feel like it’s all real and that i want it(when i dont). any tips or anything, idk how to keep going
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