MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

Am I real?

I get hungry, but even the food I love to eat feels like I’m tired of the taste after one bite. I look in the mirror and I don’t look like how I do in my head. I forget what I was doing so easily. I don’t think I feel connected to anyone. I know I love them and myself. But something doesn’t feel right. I feel like I’m in a dream. I feel like my life is passing by and I’m not actually living it. I get irritated by everyone around me and then I feel guilty. I don’t feel like I’m being fair to my loved ones by doing this. I can’t share a happy moment with them.

strawbmlk

Date posted: 2y

Me too. Something constantly feels off

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@strawbmlk Yes, and what worries me is that I’m starting to do things that are not OK to help me feel real. Does anyone else do this?

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@MIOK1102 Yes 100% I feel like I left my body if that makes sense and struggle to come back

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@jessica_c Yes, I have been disassociating more than normal. Someone will literally be taking to me and I’ll completely forget what I was saying or what they were saying. It’s not that I wasn’t listening. I was, but then forgot. I also have to reread things to make sure I got every detail. This makes me have flashbacks from school and why I took so much longer to read and answer my questions.

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@MIOK1102 Ah yes i get what u mean! Me 2, i just try to smile and nod, to hide the fact that I don’t know where i am, especially when someone is conversing with me, the school thing yes, I 100% agree . I May not know how to help but I’m here to listen to you💌we’re in this together , soon we will feel better 💕i know it (:

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@jessica_c You’re so sweet and I do the same! I nod yes and smile too haha thank you for sharing, it gave me a laugh. It’s been afecto g my work lately and I’m always LATE ⏰. This past week flew by so fast, I feel like I’m skipping time or I just can’t remember most days. 😅

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@MIOK1102 Yea of course I’m glad (:, ahh I see , better late ⏰ than never, I see you trying , I’m proud of you! Yes I completely get what you mean I also feel like time is fading away or running away , if that makes sense haha!

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@jessica_c I hope you don’t mind me following you! You’ve brought my mood up, I’m glad I’m not the only one. I beat myself up for not being what everyone else expects from a young adult. 😌 but now I feel like I am normal thanks to you. 🫶🏼

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@MIOK1102 Yea of course, Aw that makes me so happy , I’m glad ! I feel better knowing that there’s also someone else out there who is going through the same thing 💕I love you , ik i don’t know you but I still wish the best for you and please reach out to me if you wanna talk, or just say hey!

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@jessica_c Yes! Though I’m not sure. How to use the app well enough 😄 I’ll keep in touch!

jessica_c

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@MIOK1102 Sounds good (:

JustAPickle

Date posted: 2y

Same here man, sucks a**. For me, I get worse and better. Try your best to power through it, most things pass. I'd recommend therapy

josie7

Date posted: 2y

I feel the exact same way..I’m also not very sure how to challenge this thought but I am here for you dude

MIOK1102

Date posted: 2y

@ILOVERATS It is strange feeling. Everything could be going completely right, but it feels like some thing is supposed to happen soon whether it’s good or bad. Anyway, I am glad I’m not the only one that feels this way.. I wake up and I’m just trying my best to function in a way that I feel like I’m supposed to in order to fit in my environment. This also leaves me feeling like I am made up of two completely different people.

r é

Date posted: 2y

That sounds like derealization. Sorry💙 hope you feel better soon

Anonymous

Date posted: 16w

I feel so different from others

I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Mariabae

Date posted: 16w

would like a response

Lately, I’ve been feeling like something has changed in me — like I have changed, and like my feelings for my boyfriend have faded or shifted. It’s one of the worst sensations I’ve ever felt. I keep thinking things like “I don’t love him like before” or “I’ve changed too much to feel anything now.” Sometimes when he calls me or makes a joke, I get irritated for no reason. I feel like I’m being mean, cold, disconnected — and then guilt crashes down on me. I remember how I used to feel: warm, close, expressive. And now… I just don’t feel the same. That makes me think: “Maybe I’ve fallen out of love.” But I’m also constantly anxious. I overthink every moment. I can’t relax into anything without analyzing if what I feel is “right.” It makes me wonder — maybe I haven’t actually changed. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and tired from months of these thoughts and fears. I don’t know how to feel right now. I just want to believe that this disconnection isn’t proof that love is gone, but a sign that I’m scared and burnt out.

Pogoshow

Date posted: 14w

Myself

I feel like I’ve lost who I am , even since my depression and ocd started. I don’t even know what I like anymore:(( I doubt everything I think and it’s so draining because I just want to feel like my old self again😭 I feel like I have no motivation to get better which is bothering me so much because I want too but something is holding me back from doing what I need to do :/ with all my thoughts and doubts , I feel like I can’t trust myself . I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this much pain

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