Im afraid of developing contamination ocd

I used to think that having ocd means youre not going to do these things and this is what made me feel okay when i was so scared of the harm and selfharm thoughts. But i see people here saying they actually act on thw thoughts and you can do that and its still ocd. Ocd can make you act on these thoughts and the self harm can be a compulsion and im so afraid of developing that cause i feel like i can, cause sometimes the urge feel.so real. Its so scary to realize that harm can be a compulsion and even killing yourself can be as one too...

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Joey Gerbino

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this! Without providing you reassurance; I’m unsure where you saw regarding carrying out compulsions that are acts of self-harm or violence towards other people, but OCD is ego-dystonic. Which means, it goes against our morals, values, goals, etc. That said, if someone genuinely wants to carry out any of those acts; that’s entirely different from OCD. Carrying out compulsions, rituals, etc. isn’t something someone with OCD wants to do either, but feels the need to do so because it provides safety, reassurance, etc. However, it’s actually counterintuitive in the long run. Have you contacted NOCD yet for an evaluation? That way, you can get connected with a therapist and get started with your ERP therapy! Hope this helps :) Sending love, compassion and support while you suffer from the monster and battle the beast that is OCD 💌

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

Im dont want to talk with therapists here because english isnt my first language, i know they are helpful, but im strugling speaking in english. And i think they would say the same as my therapist, cause i accepted my feelings, listened to it and i see what my therapist told me. That i do have the thoughts "life is not worth it/i want to die/dying is better" and all that when something bad happens and im sad. I start to blame others then i hate them and have harm thought about them. While i dont like them i feel bad after it, these thoughts are still generated by feelings of anger, ocd thoughts arent generated by emotions. So i think these are genuine, but then i feel bad and then ocd comes cause i want to deny that i had a selfharm or harm others thought. This what my therapist said and i start to see it too...

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

@PRIV8 When i have these thoughts i always feel anger or sadness in the backround so it feels like its a learned reaction, maybe a genuine one. I see that my therapist is right cause everytime people say its ocd, i feel better about myself,.but its not, even if i have ocd i have the same reaction over ocd thought to when it gets annoying that "i dont want to live with this, im done, life s*cks"...people say its normal reaction, well i didnt heared normal people thinking they rather die when life gets a little sad...

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

But actually replying to your comment, as i understand it what you said its that people with ocd can harm themself as a compulsion, they doesnt want it but they do it cause it provides safety or they feel like it will be better after that... like this is what i understood

Hexxi

Date posted: 22w

Harm ocd urges?

Harm ocd urges Does anyone else have such strong harm ocd urges regarding your obsession that it literally feels like you’re holding back from doing it? I understand that harm ocd does indeed include urges, but can they rlly feel THAT real? Like at any time I could just “decide” to do it?

Catlove9

Date posted: 22w

What do you say to OCD when you have harm urges?

I am struggling right now with intrusive harm urges. They feel real and it feels like I am going to act any second. It feels like I have to hold myself back, which is a scary thoughts. I am trying so hard not to compulse, but does anyone have tips on what they do in these situations?

flowerpetals

Date posted: 22w

frustrating

harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.

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