Haven’t been on here in awhile but I’m at quite a low point. Doing compulsions, checking, etc. Haven’t done that in a long, long time. I thought I was managing pretty well but I guess I wasn’t :(
Hi there! I go through a few days of feeling okay and then having some thoughts again. Just try to remember your non-engagement responses. Sometimes what helps me is going for a walk to change the scenery and to try to be more mindful of the present moment. Be gentle and kind with yourself. A lapse is not a relapse and don’t beat yourself up if you fell off the wagon for a moment. Take it one step at a time and you will get back to where you need to be. You got this ❤️
Thank you! I’m feeling very sad and hopeless at the moment but I know things will get better. I’m going back to therapy and am looking forward to getting my life back.
@Bootyyy$haker9000🕺 Happy to hear! You are taking a very courageous step and should feel proud of yourself for that. I wish you luck on your journey.
It can be super hard to have a lapse or back-door anxiety after a while of doing well. I’ve been dealing with that recently and it definitely is a bummer. Something to remember is that this is a life-long journey, there are going to be ups and downs. But it won’t last forever and you have the tools you need to continue on. Know you aren’t alone and I believe in you!
Hi! My therapist used to tell me that OCD recovery is not linear, meaning you are going to hit peaks of destroying OCD and valleys of OCD being tough. But by doing the work the projection will be positive even if bad days occur. Also with OCD recovery, you never go back to being at square one! Try not to beat yourself up over doing some compulsions, it happens. Try to learn from it and try and get back on track. You can do this!
I feel you... I'm having a bit of a lapse these past few days after a big trigger caught me out of nowhere. Trying to be as self-compassionate as I can. We're not alone 💖
I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. Like everyone has said, this is the ups and downs of ocd. There will be bad days - but the further we get into recovery - the better we are able to deal with it. You are managing well - but sometimes we all have to go back to the well of ERP. It has happened to me many times - but each time it is a bit shorter time and linger in between spikes.
I didn’t realize how bad/severe my agoraphobia was, I kept putting off as not being “that bad” or thinking “other people have it worse” without realizing I’m low key one of those people 💀 But honestly it makes me wanna cry realizing just how crippled I’ve been, how badly this has actually been all these years, and it’s only getting worse, I have a serious problem and I’m really hoping this place will help me
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
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