Haven’t been on here in awhile but I’m at quite a low point. Doing compulsions, checking, etc. Haven’t done that in a long, long time. I thought I was managing pretty well but I guess I wasn’t :(
Hi there! I go through a few days of feeling okay and then having some thoughts again. Just try to remember your non-engagement responses. Sometimes what helps me is going for a walk to change the scenery and to try to be more mindful of the present moment. Be gentle and kind with yourself. A lapse is not a relapse and don’t beat yourself up if you fell off the wagon for a moment. Take it one step at a time and you will get back to where you need to be. You got this ❤️
Thank you! I’m feeling very sad and hopeless at the moment but I know things will get better. I’m going back to therapy and am looking forward to getting my life back.
@Bootyyy$haker9000🕺 Happy to hear! You are taking a very courageous step and should feel proud of yourself for that. I wish you luck on your journey.
It can be super hard to have a lapse or back-door anxiety after a while of doing well. I’ve been dealing with that recently and it definitely is a bummer. Something to remember is that this is a life-long journey, there are going to be ups and downs. But it won’t last forever and you have the tools you need to continue on. Know you aren’t alone and I believe in you!
Hi! My therapist used to tell me that OCD recovery is not linear, meaning you are going to hit peaks of destroying OCD and valleys of OCD being tough. But by doing the work the projection will be positive even if bad days occur. Also with OCD recovery, you never go back to being at square one! Try not to beat yourself up over doing some compulsions, it happens. Try to learn from it and try and get back on track. You can do this!
I feel you... I'm having a bit of a lapse these past few days after a big trigger caught me out of nowhere. Trying to be as self-compassionate as I can. We're not alone 💖
I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. Like everyone has said, this is the ups and downs of ocd. There will be bad days - but the further we get into recovery - the better we are able to deal with it. You are managing well - but sometimes we all have to go back to the well of ERP. It has happened to me many times - but each time it is a bit shorter time and linger in between spikes.
I am (or was)! Yesterday, I started to get really anxious for unknown reasons, and then (just my luck) I got triggered by something online 😭 It's always so... humbling. I'm trying to sit with the intrusive thoughts at this moment, but I'm just feeling really icky and a bit down. With OCD, it's bound to happen at some point, I guess. Even without OCD, you're going to have good and bad days. It's just how life is 🥲 I'm just afraid of being slingshot back to how I felt a few months ago, which I know realistically WON'T happen, but my brain doesn't want me to think logically lol. I'm also afraid that the repetitive nature of OCD intrusive thoughts will somehow alter who I am as a person, making my fears a reality? It's weird. Classic OCD, but it still makes me anxious! I have been doing better not engaging with these thoughts, but occasionally, I'll accidentally argue back. It doesn't help because then my brain says, "You're just in denial, and you're actually a bad person!" And whenever I say anything in opposition of something against my morals, it feels performative or fake for some reason 🫠 I'm just venting at this point, I'm sorry! Anyway, if anyone reads this, I hope you're doing okay, and if not, I hope things look up soon. Take care of yourselves, stay hydrated, and rest well!
Hello everyone! I have grown up with OCD and gotten quite the handle on it. However, it still comes back every now and then and this is one of those times. For some reason, it has to get pretty bad for me to do something about and I am noticing an interesting trend. It gradually gets worse, I finally decide to resist it when it gets bad, it goes away to almost nothing and I let my guard down. My OCD is not nearly as powerful at this stage, but it releases just enough doubt for me to do the compulsion “just this one time”, and it gets bad again. Any recommendations?
My checking ocd has gotten worse, I'm wasting a lot of time on unnecessary checking. It's left me with guilt,regret,resentment.. I can't be productive ,can't even focus on the things I love and desperately want to get better at.
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