Haven’t been on here in awhile but I’m at quite a low point. Doing compulsions, checking, etc. Haven’t done that in a long, long time. I thought I was managing pretty well but I guess I wasn’t :(
Hi there! I go through a few days of feeling okay and then having some thoughts again. Just try to remember your non-engagement responses. Sometimes what helps me is going for a walk to change the scenery and to try to be more mindful of the present moment. Be gentle and kind with yourself. A lapse is not a relapse and don’t beat yourself up if you fell off the wagon for a moment. Take it one step at a time and you will get back to where you need to be. You got this ❤️
Thank you! I’m feeling very sad and hopeless at the moment but I know things will get better. I’m going back to therapy and am looking forward to getting my life back.
@Bootyyy$haker9000🕺 Happy to hear! You are taking a very courageous step and should feel proud of yourself for that. I wish you luck on your journey.
It can be super hard to have a lapse or back-door anxiety after a while of doing well. I’ve been dealing with that recently and it definitely is a bummer. Something to remember is that this is a life-long journey, there are going to be ups and downs. But it won’t last forever and you have the tools you need to continue on. Know you aren’t alone and I believe in you!
Hi! My therapist used to tell me that OCD recovery is not linear, meaning you are going to hit peaks of destroying OCD and valleys of OCD being tough. But by doing the work the projection will be positive even if bad days occur. Also with OCD recovery, you never go back to being at square one! Try not to beat yourself up over doing some compulsions, it happens. Try to learn from it and try and get back on track. You can do this!
I feel you... I'm having a bit of a lapse these past few days after a big trigger caught me out of nowhere. Trying to be as self-compassionate as I can. We're not alone 💖
I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. Like everyone has said, this is the ups and downs of ocd. There will be bad days - but the further we get into recovery - the better we are able to deal with it. You are managing well - but sometimes we all have to go back to the well of ERP. It has happened to me many times - but each time it is a bit shorter time and linger in between spikes.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
I’m having a big OCD relapse and would like to hear anyone’s tips on how to be present and healthily deal with these intrusive thoughts and the “need” to preform compulsions. Thank you!!
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