Threw away my dinner

Ugh…I’m on the struggle bus rn. I cooked 20$ worth of pork chops (followed the recipe to a T and used a cooking thermometer); I took one bite and couldn’t swallow. Spit it out and proceeded to mouth wash, rinse, and spit, spitting over and over until it felt like all the remnants of the food were gone. Then I threw it all away. I googled multiple pages to ensure I cooked them right. Even before cooking them, I smelled them and inspected them thoroughly, ensuring they were good. I’m exhausted, and I feel sick.

Contamination OCD

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

Please look up ARFID. I had OCD related ARFID and nearly died from the weight loss. ERP therapy works for ARFID from OCD.

Username: PurelyMePurelyMe

Date posted: 1y ago

@Erin P That’s scary! Glad you’re ok! Yeah, I’ve been curious about that.

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

@PurelyMe The good new is I am a healthy weight and eat tons of foods now including many I was absolutely terrified of - so I know ERP can work for you too.

Username: Amber RAmber R

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry you’re struggling right now. I can imagine how frustrating it must feel to spend the time + money on making a nice meal only to then feel unable to eat it. Contamination fears around food are so tricky because when compulsions come up, it feels irresponsible not to engage with them; no one wants to eat something that will make them sick. But engaging in those compulsions only keeps us locked in OCDs cycle and teaches our brain that there is a real threat. The best way to treat this is with ERP. Are you in therapy for OCD? If not, I recommend giving NOCD a call for their free consultation. They’ve helped me so much!

Username: PurelyMePurelyMe

Date posted: 1y ago

@Amber R I’ve been debating trying therapy again. I’ve also thought about changing my meds, but of course that’s another anxiety-ridden thing.

Username: hellopeoplehellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 1y ago

That’s so discouraging, I’m sorry for that experience! You did the right steps to ensure you cooked them correct, that’s all we can do! After that if OCD tells you the logic isn’t correct we have to ignore those intrusive thoughts even if they feel real. It’s good ERP to then eat the food you properly prepared. Again, I’m sorry you are struggling with this. I hope you have success when you try again!

Username: PurelyMePurelyMe

Date posted: 1y ago

@hellopeople Thanks for the validation! 😊 it’s nice to have somewhere to share these thoughts.

Username: hellopeoplehellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 1y ago

@PurelyMe It’s really is nice to have a community of people that understand! I’m glad you are finding it encouraging!

Username: tigerlia

Date posted: 5y ago

Can't eat cos Contamination OCD says that nothing has been cooked correctly and I end up burning everything I cook. Fml I'm hungry, sorry I'm just done with this illness. I don't want to get sick by eating something but screw it, I haven't eaten in two days you know? Rant over, take care guys :)

Username: girlyteengirl

Date posted: 42w ago

Eating is beginning to get harder

I wish I wasn't so paranoid. I hate when I give in to my fears whenever I'm about to eat something just to end up avoiding it instead. There are some moments where I eat confident and ignore the intrusive thoughts, but most of the time it's spent in agony. My relationship with food has completely changed. It's gotten to a point where when I do get myself to eat something I cant help but pick at my food and spit it out if I feel something that doesn't "feel right". I can't keep being babied anymore and I know it's up to me to put an end to this new fear, but I'm so scared. This is so exhausting I hate living like this everyday.

Username: Studybug

Date posted: 39w ago

Freaking out

I know this sounds really silly, but I cannot decide on what to eat for dinner and I've gone into a full anxiety attack. I don't know why but every time I cannot find what to eat or if I go way past my dinner time like now or my family finish eating before me I have an anxiety attack. I tried to go into the kitchen to cook but then I had just started having a panic attack and had to go back to my room. Why does this keep happening to me??

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