Harm OCD to my girlfriend

My life since 2023 was hard my grandfather died and i was very stressed about everything, one day i watched a movie about killing, and the thought just popped in my head what if i kill first it was about someone i hate , and my anxiety spiked to the roof , while my mind was thinking about it i had a thought what if i hurt my Gf which I admire and love the most then i start losing it even I thought eventually i have to lose her just to protect her from , i have never spoke to a therapist i rlly want this part to go away and i get my life back together.. If any one can help me of what i can do it will be a thankful Ps:sorry for my bad english its not my first language

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one step at ...

Date posted: 2y

I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone thru this year with loosing your grandpa and struggling with some harm ocd thoughts. You are not alone 🤗 and you can get help to overcome your struggles with this. Are you able to see a therapist from nocd, they are all trained in erp therapy that helps you overcome your ocd thoughts and learn to manage it easier. My nocd therapist has helped me so much🙏👍🏻Also , there are great resources on utube, Nathan Peterson has ocd and anxiety videos and also online courses, he is so great👍🏻 keep reaching out for help , recovery is totally possible💝just take one step at a time and be kind to yourself 🙏💝

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@one step at a time😊🙏💝 Rlly thankful for your words it mean the world to me , I promise i will do my beat to overcome my OCD . Im trying to connect with a NOCD therapist but i was unlikely due to the date i have booked on 1 march lets see what it will bring us 🙏🏻🙏🏻

Joey Gerbino

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this! I’m also, sorry for the loss of your late-grandfather. Without providing you reassurance; it makes sense that your OCD symptoms would have spiked over the loss of your late-grandfather because OCD tends to spike when stress levels are high. However, unfortunately doesn’t ever need an excuse when it comes to presenting itself and making itself known. To me, it sounds like whatever movie you were watching “Triggered,” you and your OCD jumped on the opportunity to present itself and it’s symptoms. Such as intrusive thoughts in general, but also including, but not limited too; “What if, Whose next,” etc. However, thoughts do not equal actions. Only you, are in control of your actions; despite what OCD may try and tell you or make you believe. Your intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic and that’s why they cause you distress because had they aligned with your morals, values, etc. You wouldn’t be distressed by them and they presence of them wouldn’t be distressing, etc. for you. Have you contacted NOCD for an evaluation yet? That way, you can get connected with a therapist and get started with your ERP therapy! Just know, you’re not alone! Hope this helps :) Sending love, compassion and support while you suffer from the monster and battle the beast that is OCD 💌

slaiby

Date posted: 4w

same thing here seeing this comment 2y ago i really want to know how are u feeling now and if u beated it

laladracu

Date posted: 24w

idk if its harm ocd anymore

I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.

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Anonymousalways

Date posted: 22w

Always in my head

Im sorry I have to come on here and ask for advice once again, but as some people on here know I have been suffering with ocd since I was around the age of ten, which only got worse as my beautiful children came along. or nearly 60 years Ive had every type of ocd there is, they always come down to the same thing , not wanting to ever harm the people I love more than anything. I had got on top of this and was managing well, I know I would never harm anyone I love ever and would never ever want to, no more of the hypothetical scenarios for reassurance either , but its like every time I try to stop the mental compulsions intrusive thoughts come back after a few days, As I was in between going to sleep and was half awake the horrible words ' hope ***** dies I cannot even write the name down who it was about. I do not know where it came from but I am constantly getting upset about this as it was about someone I would give up my life for. I think you can probably guess what I mean without me having to say it. I do read a lot of posts and ocd podcasts and once read someones story wher they used to wish bad things and I have never been able to stop worrying in case something like that happened to me . Could this be what it was that has caused it ? I think Ive also still held onto something from when I was a child when I used to worry that thinking something too much could make it happen,, Please, please give me some addvice and thank you,,, sorry for the long post.

ItWillBeOkay...

Date posted: 19w

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About 2 months ago, I sliced my arm so deep in an attempt to make this all go away.. as there was blood spurting like everywhere my life flashed before my eyes and I could hear my parents laughing in the room beside me. I started screaming for help as my eyes flooded with tears. How could their little girl do that to herself?? I was able to get to the ER and have my arm stitched up.. making my attempt a fail. But I’m so scared. I don’t want to do something like that again. I’ve never seen my parents cry except for then. The fear in their eyes haunts me up to this day. But that’s the only thing that relieves my pain. Can someone help or relate to this ???

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