Anyone here with hocd that used to watch lesbian porn? I used to and now it totally freaks me out thinking that I want them. But I don’t. I haven’t watched porn in months, since this all started! I just tried watching male masturbation porn and it didn’t really turn me on...now all I can think is that female porn would... before it was never an issue, I never thought twice about it, and now I can’t stop thinking about it. Just wanna know if anyone is in the same boat? Is it possible to be turned on sexually but not wanna be with someone, at all, at the same time?

Lesbian porn is consistently one of the top types of porn straight women consume: https://www.vice.com/sv/article/3b4pa3/why-straight-women-watch-lesbian-porn This is for a lot of reasons. Straight porn is generally made by men, for men — women’s pleasure isn’t part of that equation (unless it’s to fulfill male ego). For a lot of women, it’s hard to watch and identify with straight porn because it’s not how they want to be treated or to have sex. Lesbian porn (while still often created by men and for men) is more often depicted as a place for safe, fun, feminine, sexy exploration. Straight women feel less intimidated watching it since it won’t feature male domination and/or degradation; instead, they see a type of touch and attention that’s more in line with how they like to be treated and turned on. A lot of straight women watch it simply because they identify more with the pleasure women exhibit in lesbian porn, not because they want to be with the women.

oh yeah ? i used to be kinda addicted

YES! I used to watch lesbian porn all the time and I started to get scared that I was lesbian too because of it but then I realized I wasn't the only straight woman watching it.....I have even tried masturbating to an anonymous girl on a chat app and we sent pictures to each other, but I'm still straight. At the same time I don't even know if that memory I have is real or a false memory, but regardless, it was because of my hocd and it's okay lol.

thanks. I know I wasn’t the only straight girl watching it but now I’m so scared. Before I never would’ve cared!!

Yeah I know. Definitely not ready for that yet!

that was reffering to the first question lol

Well it can be a great exposure if you’re willing to go through the anxiety without compulsions!