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@LizardLady95 Oh my good lol I’m going to my gp so I can get a referral to a psychiatrist cause it’s been a long time since I’ve seen one. I don’t know what to do because I’ve never taken meds so I don’t want anti depressants I was thinking something like Valium just for in the heat of the moment stuff. But that’s exactly what I was thinking they could tell me if I have dementia. I think watching my great grandma go through it even though it wasn’t developed for me right away is what really started it and if I make a mistake like she did I automatically assume thats why cause I’m like her.

@LizardLady95 Thank you for you comment cause I feel like I’m about to go down that rabbit hole of searching for that answer. My mother in law actually has some pretty similar fears and she has been to a neuropsyche and she was told she was fine too. It’s just so flipping scary

@Meepmeep It’s a tricky one for sure because anxiety really can mess with your memory so you start to feel like you’re showing symptoms, but I’ve had ct scans of my brain and done EEG’s and plenty of cognitive tests and nothing has ever been found, except that I have pretty severe anxiety and ocd. But it’s like I refuse to accept that I have the brain disorder that is ocd and am instead always looking for something worse and it’s like why? Ocd is already bad enough lol. I wish I haven’t done so many things to check because that’s where things start to get really sticky. The more you check the more you reinforce the ocd. I would never tell you what to do but just please think about all the time I’ve wasted on this, it truly was a waste of time and money.

@LizardLady95 OCD is atrocious. Do you mind if I ask when yours started or how it was triggered? Mine started when I had my first child it started as pocd and hocd.

@Meepmeep I started with harm ocd in childhood but I’ve dealt with pocd, magical thinking ocd, contamination and a lot of health ocd. My health ocd got really bad in college when my parents got divorced, I was studying public health and got obsessed with diseases, especially a rare type of dementia, but really I think all my ocd just comes from having instability in my childhood and feeling out of control. There’s probably a hereditary aspect because several of my family members have ocd too. I’m also a mom and that has been hard with ocd. How long have you had ocd?

@LizardLady95 9 years well almost. I think my grandma has OCD as well but she’s not diagnosed I think hers would be religious

@Meepmeep Yea I think a lot of people especially who are older have gone undiagnosed or were seen as just “eccentric or nuerotic” my grandma has pretty intense ocd but it doesn’t seem like any doctor ever picked up on it, and people praised her for being so clean. I think people assume women are just naturally nervous or anxious especially as a new mom they think well she’s not getting enough sleep so that’s what it is, but like my ocd is more severe than any general anxiety I’ve ever had. I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with it for 9 years, that’s about how long I’ve had it and it’s been awful.

@LizardLady95 Do you have any breaks from it? Like one time I probably went around 4 months with nothing and I was so happy.

@Meepmeep Yea I mean I’d say it’s always lingering for me but there are periods when it’s severe and periods when it’s tolerable

@LizardLady95 That stinks, well I hope we find peace somewhere cause we need it!

@Hopeful soul Right and I remember I made this post and to check it and if I had dementia I would have forgot right? It’s just a pain in the booty

@AcceptUncertainty So true

@AcceptUncertainty Does this fall into the health concern area

@Meepmeep Absolutely!

@vgb Yeah long term use of steroids is really hard on peoples bodies