- Date posted
- 2y
Exhausted from compulsions
Sigh. Just wanted to vent somewhere to people who understand. I’ve been struggling with my ocd for the past 2-3 weeks after having a breezy few weeks. My fixations have been moving from one mark on my son’s body to another to another. I’ve fixated on a birthmark on his neck for the past 3 days and the compulsion to examine it, compare it to photos I’ve taken months back, and ruminate have been relentless. I’m so tired. So my mind always tricks me into thinking any pigmentation or marks are something I should be worried about. Or am I upset because I can’t seem to “answer” my questions if it is or isn’t. Or because I know it’s my ocd thinking yet I can’t seem to connect the dots to process this and move on. I’m sorry guys. Hope you’re all having a better night then me.