- Date posted
- 2y
I was so stupid
I was so stupid as a teenager. Never had bad intentions though and never will I just didn’t know what I know now. I have heard people say that at a young age your adult mindset or brain hasn’t fully developed for you to understand yet but I still feel so upset, regretful, angry at myself and I self sabotage myself everyday because I feel like I don’t deserve love, happiness, good things in life like opportunities or to have fun with my family on occasions or vacations. I feel like my birthday is just another day and I don’t want anyone to get me anything or celebrate it. I feel like I will never get married or have a family because I feel like I don’t deserve it. I even feel like I don’t deserve to live. I don’t understand why I didn’t know better when I should have. It’s not like I knew and did it anyways. I literally had no clue. Never crossed my mind. And I should have know. I’m being honest I’m not trying to make excuses I’m literally being so for real. I just want to be free, if deserving of such. I hate myself. I was so so stupid as a teenager. I get I was going but part of me absolutely does not understand why I didn’t know better when I should of 💔