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- 5y ago
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I experienced this too
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- 5y ago
what you are going through is super normal! I have had sexual orientation OCD for the past year, and it is pure hell. it does get easier though. remember that
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- 5y ago
I don’t know if this is helpful, but even if you were gay or bi, there would be no pressure on you to come out. You don’t need a label or to announce to the world you’re a certain thing. You don’t need to act on those feelings or thought because it’s entirely your own personal experience. It’s okay to not feel any attraction at the moment. Often I lose attraction to anybody when I’m obsessing over what I am and aren’t attracted to. It’s only natural with all the anxiety built around it.
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- 5y ago
Hey, just know, if you wanted to kiss women, you already would have. I'm pan, but didn't realize it until later in life. I thought everyone made out with women at college parties. Apparently not. I also know that if my husband and I ever broke up, I would openly date a woman because I genuinely find them sexually attractive. Our actions and experiences shape who you are, and if you haven't taken any action and won't... it's just an OCD conspiracy theory against you. Let it go. ? We landed a man on the moon. The Egyptians built the pyramids. You're not gay.
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- 19w ago
I feel so sad, alone, scared and hopeless. Until two months ago there was not even the remote possibility of being anything other than heterosexual and now the idea that I could find out that I was lesbian or bisexual terrifies me to death. Everything was born from the fact that I didn't feel sexual desire towards my ex-boyfriend and I started to be afraid that it was because I was a lesbian... how can I be a lesbian or bisexual if everything was born from this? I would like to run away from myself and my head. I would really like to go back and go back to my life before. I can't take it anymore. I just want to live my life like before
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- 18w ago
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w ago
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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