I just got scared bc one if the "signs" of comphet is picking men to like. And ocd is saying I'm doing that right now bc I don't feel attraction to men. But I'm not doing that bc I'm not picking random men, I'm not even picking them. I'm just acknowlging my past crushes I've had and a relationship I had with a man before hocd. That's just me thinking of men I liked before.
I just posted about this too - I seriously hate the CompHet theory especially for those of us who have OCD brain…I just had a major panic attack reading about this but a lot of the CompHet signs don’t fit for me so I find some comfort in that plus the fact that I have some other OCD themes. Wishing you well as you get through this!
I'm sorry if I triggered you. I haven't read all of the comphet signs and I don't plan to at all. It does help me to know that some people, including lesbians themselves see the whole masterdoc as misleading and not authentic. But of course, that doesn't stop the ocd mind at all. I just want this thought to go away, bc I did have attractions to men before so I'm not picking any now. I'm just sticking with thinking about the ones I know I liked.