- Date posted
- 2y ago
Fear
I just got out of the gym and besides the thoughts and feelings I had it was an alright day. Then I wait in the car for my dad and sister and for some reason I’m convinced that I’m gay in that moment, so my dad surprises me and says I should practice my driving and then while being convinced I get this fear of “YOUR GAY, what would you father think?, YOUR NOT GONNA LIVE UP TO HIS EXPECTATIONS!” Then I get scared and wonder am I really gay? Am I only really straight because of what my father would think, and now my mind won’t let me live it down because I feared what my father would think. Does this happen to anyone else ? (I’m also still attracted to woman, so I don’t know if this was ocd convincing I was or not which scares me)