Struggling-- Contimatination OCD

My bf just returned back to the west coast to finish school. He stayed back with me for two weeks after a real low point in my OCD/depression/anxiety BS. I'm already struggling. ' I have contamination ocd and I feel so unclean and unsettled right now. I didn't wash my hands an appropriate amount of times and didn't change the clothes I was wearing despite feeling weird about them. When he was around, I felt safer to not engage in my compulsions. With him gone, I don't know how I feel. I feel so off and unstable. How am I going to make it to June (the next time I see him)?

Username: Erin P

Date posted: Yesterday

Please start learning to handle the OCD on your own with ERP therapy. Relying on someone else being there for you all the time is not a strategy that will work for your whole future. If you can resist when you are with him that means you are capable of delay which a kind of ERP step one. ERP saved my life. You deserve to have it save your too.

Username: This Shit is Hard

Date posted: Yesterday

@Erin P This is great advice and I agree too! I feel like I used my ex as an excuse a lot to not act out a compulsion and after years together, I couldn’t control it anymore and my ocd spilt over drastically in the relationship. I have contamination ocd as well, it’s extremely hard but necessary to figure out with your own tools.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@This Shit is Hard - how did you do that?