@eeess I am so sorry I have been so exhausted to the point of not knowing how I would make it through the next moment let alone my life. I am here to say it will get better. I am sitting typing this now feeling grateful and hopeful and for the most part peaceful. If you tried to tell me this a couple days ago i wouldn’t said it can’t be me there’s no hope for me, because I was convinced what ocd was telling me was real. Have you seen the video on pure ocd posted on here last night? I don’t know what your themes are but it may be helpful, I didn’t know I had pure ocd and the education is very helpful. You have got this you will make it through. I know it’s hell but if you stay alive it will get better.