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I have something similar. It really is exhausting..
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@Mayte It really is. Sending good vibes your way š
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It is the worst feeling. How are you coping?
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@nat19 Honestly not well. Iām trying to cope by staying busy and keeping up w my medication. Smoking has been helping as well for me. Hbu?
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@Anonymous06 iāve been trying to avoid my coworker as much possible because i have such uncomfortable feelings when heās near or talks to me. i try to listen to music and take nice baths. smoking doesnāt help much.
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In the same boat with you, stay strong
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@PinkLotus Sending love your way š itās almost making me feel numb to my significant other. Hard to deal with
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same here. i think the obsession with my coworker is what triggered my ocd but i wouldnāt even consider myself obsessed or attached. very difficult to deal with
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@lilliiii What do you consider the fixation you have on then then? Sending love!
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@Anonymous06 im not sure because i want to say itās a false crush. given my circumstances, i think my brain fixated on them during a big transition in my life (moving in with my partner). and i distinctly remember a little bit before this āfalse crushā i thought to myself āwow youāve done a good job not having a crush on anyone.ā knowing myself, i form silly crushās very easily. maybe i jinxed myself, not sure. it definitely has caused me great amounts of anxiety though. i donāt have any attraction to this coworker, we donāt have anything in common really. i just think it could be some sort of admiration that my brain mistakes for infatuation
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@lilliiii i feel this so much, oh god. i am so sorry youāre going through this. i know how difficult and uncomfortable those feelings are.
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@nat19 it definitely does suck but over time it goes away. one of my biggest fears throughout my relationship was falling in love with someone else and i had never realized that was something ocd does. i know now that iām not my thoughts or feelings and this will all pass but it just sucks that this has triggered such a flare up in my relationship during such an important time of olly life
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@lilliiii Iām sorry to interrupt but Iām currently going through the same thing is there anything that you did to let the thoughts go or not bother you anymore?
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@Mayte they definitely still bother me. funny enough, the anxiety i felt when i would be around my coworker, or talk to her, or even knowing she was at work would let me know that i did in fact not like her nor have any interest in her. i at first would avoid her but i started talking to her more and told myself that itās okay, thereās nothing i want from her, i donāt have a romantic interest in her, iām in a relationship that is far more suitable for me and i just kinda have learned to live with it. i trust in myself that these thoughts will go away with time as i have had similar thoughts about a best friend of mine while in my current relationship. my brain just likes to torture me i guessš
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I cannot tell if this is OCD assigning meaning where there is none, or if it is something else entirely. I have ADHD, and I tend to hyperfixate on people, specifically men I find interesting. It feels like a crush. Maybe it is a crush. I do not know. It does not matter. I daydream a lot. I have posted about this before, and the responses were helpful, but right now I am spiraling again. Lately, what I think is a dopamine-driven hyperfixation has latched onto my supervisor at work. I actively stop myself from ruminating too much about what it could mean. I remind myself they are just thoughts. I love my boyfriend and I am committed to him. But I have noticed that I sometimes *hope* something goes wrong with an order, just so I have a reason to talk to my supervisor, even if the interaction is only a few sentences. I do not even smile at him because I am so afraid of being disloyal or disrespectful to my boyfriend. The other day, my voice sounded nice, and I got scared that I did that on *purpose* because I was talking to my supervisor. I know how to make my voice sound smoother, and I worried that I subconsciously did it for him. I know people do that kind of thing to seem pleasant in general, but it feels wrong when it is tied to one specific person. There was another moment where I had to bend slightly, and I knew he was behind me, though I didnāt know he would walk in my direction. It turned into a kind of awkward traffic situation, and I started wondering if I *hoped* for that. I even caught myself thinking about whether he finds me attractive. I know that these thoughts might be in the normal range, but the fact that I think about him so much, daydreaming, hoping for interactions, mentally replaying things, feeling excitement, makes me feel incredibly guilty. Is that disrespectful to my boyfriend? I donāt think Iām flirting. But I feel like even hoping/looking for interactions or tweaking my voice counts as some kind of betrayal. I just donāt know. To me, it sounds like a mix of ADHD and OCD, It really does feel like chaos inside my head. I want to be honest with my boyfriend, but I know talking about this stuff makes his jealousy flare up, and understandably so Iām a jealous person myself. But if I donāt confess, it feels like I am hiding something and it feels *extra* disloyal. I know that daydreaming and a bit of excitement are normal, especially with ADHD and dopamine-seeking, but when I go out of my way for a few-sentence interaction, or crave eye contact, is that disloyal? I am not asking for reassurance. I genuinely want to understand if this is normal or if it crosses a line. I am scared that I am just making excuses for bad behavior. I am scared that this is not okay and I am doing it anyway. I wish I could ask my therapist about this, but I had to stop going recently. She always understood how my brain works, especially the difference between reassurance-seeking and genuinely wanting clarity. She was really good at helping me figure out whether something was common or explainable. It helped so much to just know if something was normal, even if knowing did not stop the rumination. Thatās kind of what I am looking for now, just someone to tell me if this pattern makes sense or if it crosses a line. Please help :(
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Iām like 90% sure Iām just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like āif you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers youāll lose all attraction to men and your bf. Youāre practically already a lesbianā I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation Iām scared of losing all attraction to him I donāt wanna be thinking about women. I donāt unless Iām really stressed cuz when Iām stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when Iām in the city with him but Iām back home for most of the summer and I canāt be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I havenāt been here in a while tbh. Iām worried I donāt feel enough. I donāt like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I donāt like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry Iām truly a lesbian but Iām not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bfās I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is āwhen he dies youāll be able to date a woman, when you break up youāll only wanna date womenā and itās stressing me out. Itās making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: Iāve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I havenāt had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. Iām so worried Iām faking or donāt feel enough. Iām learning what a healthy relationship looks like and Iām terrified Iām gonna up and leave him when weāre older cuz Iāll finally figure out that Iām a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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my relationship ocd theme is back and it hasnāt for a while. i keep having intrusive thoughts about a friend even tho i have a boyfriend of 6 years. i like do not like this person they are good looking but im not like into them. i like feel guilty for no reason and i feel like i need to tell my boyfriend even tho like weāve been through this before and it only gets better if i tell him but if i donāt i feel like im hiding something. AHH like i donāt even wanna see that person anymore
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