i’m so used to this theme that i do compulsions in my dreams and the groinal responses i wake up with so confused. especially because i don’t always have the same anxiety in my dreams than when i’m awake and it feels “better.”
I understand how you feel😔 I have been there before
@duane🍀 i hate this theme sm dude😭
@ocdgirl123 I don’t get anxiety anymore
@duane🍀 i still do for the most part but i’m still always wondering if i’m deluding myself about my sexuality
@ocdgirl123 I still think and question my sexuality
@duane🍀 yeah same :/ i try not to but it’s always always there on my mind. so frustrating
Yep! I'm right there with you! It's so debilitating and it feels you one can never catch a break! You're stronger than you think though. Make this disorder your bitch
I do compulsions in my sleep too . It’s ridiculous lol
@Mia Mia Same here
Omg same, compulsions in my dreams.
@Meg Johnson it’s the absolute worst. the feelings that i get from it in my dreams sometimes don’t match what i feel when i’m awake and it makes me so confused. this theme is a bitch
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
I had a really bad nightmare revolving around one of my big themes and I woke up with the panic still left over the dream as if it was real and I kept thinking about the situations. I tried to tell myself it was just a dream, but then it made me question real life. So then it was a cycle of ruminating about the events as though they were real and my reality which really messed me up bc my biggest theme right now is becoming schizophrenic/catatonic/"crazy." I feel stuck in a loop, I've tried saying the "maybes" and even talking to my partner about other things but it just keeps looping in my head "am I crazy?" "I can't differentiate between dreams" "I feel like I'm stuck in my head and I can't even talk". Any tips? I feel like I'm at the crescendo of my 20 years (lifelong) ocd due to stress from moving soon.
I want to start by specifying that I am not diagnosed. This feels too real, yesterday I was fine about this, I didn't feel much, I didn't think much and I felt fine, Today I woke up from dreams I had (not explicit) but I really feel like I am this, I don't know how to explain it, I feel like I sexualize everything, I feel like I like it and it makes me uncomfortable, I always feel different from everyone else, but in a bad way. I don't know how to explain it, but I really feel like this is who I am, and what happens to me is that I can't identify with OCD. I avoid everything that reminds me of this And I feel that sometimes I downplay the issue of my "OCD" as if it were not serious and it is
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