Naya rownan
- Date posted
- 2y
Mooooni Mooooni
- Date posted
- 2y
The more compulsions you do, the worse it gets. Try erp in small steps. One day one step, one exposure. Doing it allows you to remind your memory and keep it intact
Naya rownanNaya rownan
- Date posted
- 2y
Oh thank you so much but do you any idea how can i do erp in this case of false memory?
Mooooni Mooooni
- Date posted
- 2y
@Naya rownan It all depends what your compulsions are. But regardless, maybe do an action where you might get false memory and avoid checking. I have false memory too. I had to face it head on and trust me you have to throw yourself in not checking. It only helps your memory
Michael_99Michael_99
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Unfortunately with OCD we seek something that can ease our anxiety but with False Memory OCD there is nothing we can really do but to resist our compulsions. We all know by having OCD we avoid morally comparable situations so a false memory where we are doing something wrong is probably an intrusive thought
Mooooni Mooooni
- Date posted
- 2y
@Michael_99 I literally had a false memory experience right now. I’m at a salsa club and I danced with someone I knew from back in the day. I don’t know but he grabbed my face and I thought he was going to kiss me so I backed up and confronted him and he said he was only trying to get my face close to do a dance move. I didn’t really believe it. I am sitting here feeling stupid guilty because I am seeing someone even though we’re not together. It’s an issue I have sometimes when I really like someone. Like especially now with ocd. I have hesitated going out and such because I don’t care to meet men or even engage because I want to show this guy how much I like him which is silly. I can still live life and I should remember I have control of myself only. But now since he tried whatever that was.. now in my head I’m thinking should I tell this guy I’m seeing. The rumination and guilt has been killing me Me and this guy also had a rough week. He found a condom at my place from the guy I was seeing two weeks before I met him. He confronted me so I feel like maybe I should’ve gone out but I also have to live my life This has been a kick in my face as I’m facing the worst ocd rumination rituals but maybe this is good so I can practice erp or whatever. At least how I’m looking at it
Michael_99Michael_99
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Monitica I see that based on what I am hearing that the environment was triggering. If the presence of the guy dancing on you was the overwhelming take a breather. It’s common to compile our anxieties on top of one another especially with OCD, our false memories can overlap our relationships so it’s tough, you got this fight the compulsions!
Mooooni Mooooni
- Date posted
- 2y
@Michael_99 Yeah it was very triggering. My false memories are intense and based on fear of doing something sexual with someone. It’s almost a fear of blacking out. My fears are based around hurting others or doing some thing that is going to destroy a relationship or anything in those sorts. May I ask what fears you have around false memory? Also, I really appreciate your words.
Michael_99Michael_99
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yea that’s actually been a common theme throughout young adulthood when I was teenager and in college when ever I drank I immediately asked the question did I do anything that made anyone uncomfortable. Even just in public sober walking by people I question did I don anything bad? Yea a lot of it is sexual harm. I think based off what us humans experience there is sexual experiences that influence our obsessions
Mooooni Mooooni
- Date posted
- 2y
@Michael_99 You put a good perspective there. I wonder where it comes from but it’s probably our fears jumping from one thing to the other that we truly truly care about. It’s been so hard this week. I felt like I was drowning. Ruminating on how he thinks of me and always focused on the other person and not myself sometimes and being real like, what he feels is not my responsibility. I said the truth and I’m a good person. So yeah it’s always about the fear of hurting others by my actions. I’m sorry you had to go through that at such a young age. I really want to heal
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nothanksnott...
- Date posted
- 25w
Could use some support, please?
False memory OCD is such a pest. It’s really hard to deal with the feelings of certainty and anxiety, trying to discern if things are false memories or real memories, what if they’re real memories, what if my OCD is right, what if because my OCD was right about one thing it’s also right about this thing, what if it knows something I don’t or haven’t realized yet, what if the real memory it’s taking from is actually false and the false memory is true. And it’s worse because the theme and false memory is so high stakes and it’s terrifying to consider what if it’s actually true and the consequences, but that only feeds the OCD, and it doesn’t help that I keep mentally prodding at it to see if the feelings of certainty are still there. It makes the false memories seem so real, and it’s like it wants me to admit the false memory actually happened when I don’t know that it did, and I’ll never know. I try to sit with the uncertainty but my OCD makes this feel so real and it creates so much certainty that this did happen that it’s so hard to keep telling myself that I don’t know, that this could be a real memory or it might not be and I’ll never know, and to remember that this came up a few days ago and I was pretty sure it was a false memory and I was handling it. Like remembering the false memory made it an actual memory. I have no idea if any of this makes any sense - it’s getting so meta lol. Reading all of this, it’s no wonder it’s so hard to sit with the uncertainty about if it’s a real memory or false. It’s been on my mind over the last week, too, which probably doesn’t help things, because the deeper I try to delve into it, the more complicated it becomes, and trying to point out that logically, it doesn’t make any sense, doesn’t help because my OCD comes up with scenarios and what-ifs and ways that this could have happened. It’s really tough to sit with when my OCD is so convinced this is true and it wants me to be convinced, too. I could really use some support, validation, encouragement, anything. If you made it this far, thanks for reading - please take care of yourselves. ❤️🤗
andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 23w
Question about false memories, please help
Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
anthonycaronna
- Date posted
- 19w
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