- Date posted
- 71d ago
- Relationship OCD
having a crush and suffering of OCD
a few days ago I went to dinner with one of my friend, I met a guy and I really think I liked him. obviously it's been since that day that I've been thinking about this fact and I felt the need to inquire about this person in depth. I had bad news, he's not a serious person romantically and he's in half an affair. I suffered so much for this thing that, after a long time since OCD exploded in all its violence (exactly one year), for the first time, I felt emotions that I felt were mine and not distorted. I was sad but happy at the same time. unfortunately, today I had a very strong trigger and I'm terrified of sinking back into doubts and compulsions. the nightmare is not over and I continue to feel inadequate and small compared to the person I like who I know will never love me back. but why always me?