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@Christian Marinelli I have very bad HOCD POCD and real events OCD Based on porn and horrible real events (3 times and POCD related) when I was 13…

@Givenup - Sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time. I myself have dealt with those OCD subtypes and the relation it has to porn as well. If you feel comfortable sharing what kind of thoughts are you having?

@Christian Marinelli Well recently, I took a psychology test and had to answer a question about ego-dystonic homosexuality and I’m getting anxious and nervous because I don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in general and yet my HOCD goes “YOUR EGO-DYSTONICALLY HOMOSEXUAL” when I dont ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in general…

@Givenup What is that?

@Givenup - First off I want you to realize that you are only human and that it's okay to have these thoughts so, don't be so hard on yourself. It's how you react to them that really matters. This may sound difficult or scary at first but try leaning into the thoughts here. Maybe you are a homosexual maybe you aren't we will never know and ruminating about this will never get you closer too an answer. YOU are strong the biggest thing right now is to live with this uncertainty and not answer the thoughts OCD throws your way. You can acknowledge them but that doesn't mean you have to act on them. It can be like "radio static" in the back of your head its there but you don't have to act on it. And second what is a psychology test to determine if you're homosexual or not? There are plenty of tests out there that could possibly say otherwise but who knows what test will have the right answer. Be strong and know that you are not your OCD its a mental game and you can beat it. Hope that helps:)

@Christian Marinelli Like a Psychology test in college based on a textbook about psychology…

@Christian Marinelli Did you overcome soocd

@Givenup - Yes I understand

@Anonymous415 - I wouldn't say I overcame SOOCD but I learned how to manage it so it doesn't take over my daily life. OCD will never go away but with the right treatment it can be heavily managed.

@Christian Marinelli Did your fears come true though

@Anonymous415 They eventually subside. But following the rules of not providing reassurance my fears still may or may not come true one day but the possibility is very low.

@Christian Marinelli Why do you have to embrace uncertainty with ocd and why doesn’t it understand logic