relationship stuff

i really love my boyfriend. i really really do, i'm in love with him. i adore him. my ocd keeps attacking me and telling me that my love for him is fake and that i'm just leading him on. i'm having less of a reaction to it bc i'm so exhausted from it and i'm worried that means it must be true. we have such a good and healthy relationship and i would be devastated to lose him. he's amazing and i wouldn't ever want to do anything to harm him. i can't imagine not being with him and not doing the things i do with him. but my brain is like "what if that's all fake and you're just leading him on" or "what if you're lying to yourself" it makes me want to scream!!! i wish i could just get rid of these thoughts.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Username: Paz6

Date posted: 72d ago

Thisssss! It’s like when I’m with him, I’ve got a voice constantly screaming at me that I don’t love him and he isn’t right for me. It’s exhausting 🥺

Username: tired!

Date posted: 71d ago

I get this too and I can’t understand why. Like why is this happening all of the sudden. I hate it. I just want to enjoy my time with him all of the time again.

Username: Anonymous_2

Date posted: 71d ago

Does y’all’s attack wether or not you’re attracted to them too?? That is what my head can do - it jumps from compatibility to attraction a lot

Username: tired!

Date posted: 70d ago

@Anonymous_2 Yes, this happens to me too. It never stays the same worry. It rotates between several worries. Mine is specifically that I find my SO more cute than sexy and that’s why my libido is low. When in reality I have anxiety & depression lol which affects libido. So it’s just tiring