SO OCD QUESTION

It feels like I’m only using this theme as a cover up to look at men or I keep getting the thought of “let’s look at hot guys now and we can regret it later, cause it’s just ocd right ?” Hate this with a passion

Feels like I just keep saying I have OCD not to deal with the real atracttion that I have to dudes (Like I had OCD about being gay, bi or anything that can be into the same sex)

I’m in my 20’s and I’ve had this theme off and on since I was 13.. one of the main themes. definitely a tough one. Ocd is Chronic but can get better. Stay true to yourself and remember your values

Man, I also had it since 13, I though I was the only one that had it that young, actually my OCD uses as evidence that I was discovering myself or something

@Anonymous Like the only thing it feels like now is that you have these attractions and you just have to come out now

@Anonymous - Yeah, pretty much like that

@Perzibal Do you have a therapist?

@Anonymous Do you have a therapist or have done erp?

@Anonymous415 Yes I already did one session but have been trying to do erp on my own. Just been thinking about coming out as bi or something, for some reason it feels like a relief or that I like it and want to as in it makes me happy. Which makes me think this might not even be ocd

@Anonymous Ocd loves to tell lies.. it’s goal is to make it feel real.. remember that. But If it’s not intrusive or makes you happy though, that’s different definitely do that if it makes you happy

@Anonymous415 Honestly I don’t even know bro. I can feel like this and then the next day the obsessions just come again. Makes no sense to me

@Anonymous Classic ocd bro. It comes and goes and comes in waves. Unfortunately ocd is chronic l.. no cure but can Learn how to live with it

@Anonymous415 Also if it was denial wouldn’t I be able to push these thoughts aside and not have an obsession about it? Or test every guy for arousal and attraction ?

@Anonymous There’s a big difference between denial and soocd. NOCD actually has a blog post about it! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/is-so-ocd-hocd-just-denial-sexual-orientation-ocd

@Anonymous I did that, once I came out as bi, felt relief, didnt last, I end up on The same place I was before, and now I fear I'm truly bi

@Anonymous415 I mean there are differences, but to be honest, at the beggining I had all the listed OCD symtopms, now it just feels like denial, cause I don't have the distress I use to have, and the whole "deep down" you know, doesn't mean anything to me anymore

@Perzibal I feel you bro. I really do. In the beginning it was very different but now I truly don’t even know anymore. I guess I just want the obsessions to stop. Stop the constant checking of every guy to see if I find any attraction and the constant unwanted arousal. Or actually have friends without feeling like I’m developing feelings for them.

@Anonymous That's why I came out lol, like in My head I was going to admit being into dudes so I stop feeling like I was or do the thoughs about being into them stoped which a little contradictory if you think about it

@Perzibal Exactly bro. I don’t understand any of it

@Anonymous It feels like denial for me at this point cause I feel like I'm not scared enough or that It's just being to long like this for it to be OCD

@Perzibal Yea me too bro. Sometimes I think about same sex scenarios and it feels like I could like it or enjoy it and then sometimes I think I definitely could not do that

@Anonymous Same

@Perzibal You are not your thoughts bro. Are you Diagnosed with ocd

@Perzibal Also try living in uncertainty. If you know you are straight. You came out as bi cuz of the thoughts and u still get them, if u came out as gay you probably will still get them as well. Ocd is the doubting disorder. Lean forwards your values and sit in it. Look into Zach wedterbeck, and Shaun Flores. They have this theme and are both striving. Zach is married and has a wife and still lives with these theme. Keep going. Stay strong

@Anonymous415 Not really, I got diagnozed with anxiety disorder with obssesive tendencies

Exactly

Put in denial enjoy these thoughts and aren’t worried. They are actively doing that on purpose