- Date posted
- 2y
SO OCD QUESTION
How deep are you into this theme? What does it feel like for you?
How deep are you into this theme? What does it feel like for you?
It feels like I’m only using this theme as a cover up to look at men or I keep getting the thought of “let’s look at hot guys now and we can regret it later, cause it’s just ocd right ?” Hate this with a passion
Feels like I just keep saying I have OCD not to deal with the real atracttion that I have to dudes (Like I had OCD about being gay, bi or anything that can be into the same sex)
I’m in my 20’s and I’ve had this theme off and on since I was 13.. one of the main themes. definitely a tough one. Ocd is Chronic but can get better. Stay true to yourself and remember your values
Man, I also had it since 13, I though I was the only one that had it that young, actually my OCD uses as evidence that I was discovering myself or something
@Anonymous Like the only thing it feels like now is that you have these attractions and you just have to come out now
@Anonymous - Yeah, pretty much like that
@Perzibal Do you have a therapist?
@Anonymous Do you have a therapist or have done erp?
@Anonymous415 Yes I already did one session but have been trying to do erp on my own. Just been thinking about coming out as bi or something, for some reason it feels like a relief or that I like it and want to as in it makes me happy. Which makes me think this might not even be ocd
@Anonymous Ocd loves to tell lies.. it’s goal is to make it feel real.. remember that. But If it’s not intrusive or makes you happy though, that’s different definitely do that if it makes you happy
@Anonymous415 Honestly I don’t even know bro. I can feel like this and then the next day the obsessions just come again. Makes no sense to me
@Anonymous Classic ocd bro. It comes and goes and comes in waves. Unfortunately ocd is chronic l.. no cure but can Learn how to live with it
@Anonymous415 Also if it was denial wouldn’t I be able to push these thoughts aside and not have an obsession about it? Or test every guy for arousal and attraction ?
@Anonymous There’s a big difference between denial and soocd. NOCD actually has a blog post about it! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/is-so-ocd-hocd-just-denial-sexual-orientation-ocd
@Anonymous I did that, once I came out as bi, felt relief, didnt last, I end up on The same place I was before, and now I fear I'm truly bi
@Anonymous415 I mean there are differences, but to be honest, at the beggining I had all the listed OCD symtopms, now it just feels like denial, cause I don't have the distress I use to have, and the whole "deep down" you know, doesn't mean anything to me anymore
@Perzibal I feel you bro. I really do. In the beginning it was very different but now I truly don’t even know anymore. I guess I just want the obsessions to stop. Stop the constant checking of every guy to see if I find any attraction and the constant unwanted arousal. Or actually have friends without feeling like I’m developing feelings for them.
@Anonymous That's why I came out lol, like in My head I was going to admit being into dudes so I stop feeling like I was or do the thoughs about being into them stoped which a little contradictory if you think about it
@Perzibal Exactly bro. I don’t understand any of it
@Anonymous It feels like denial for me at this point cause I feel like I'm not scared enough or that It's just being to long like this for it to be OCD
@Perzibal Yea me too bro. Sometimes I think about same sex scenarios and it feels like I could like it or enjoy it and then sometimes I think I definitely could not do that
@Anonymous Same
@Perzibal You are not your thoughts bro. Are you Diagnosed with ocd
@Perzibal Also try living in uncertainty. If you know you are straight. You came out as bi cuz of the thoughts and u still get them, if u came out as gay you probably will still get them as well. Ocd is the doubting disorder. Lean forwards your values and sit in it. Look into Zach wedterbeck, and Shaun Flores. They have this theme and are both striving. Zach is married and has a wife and still lives with these theme. Keep going. Stay strong
@Anonymous415 Not really, I got diagnozed with anxiety disorder with obssesive tendencies
Exactly
Put in denial enjoy these thoughts and aren’t worried. They are actively doing that on purpose
@Anonymous415 *people
So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?
I haven't been able to read about experiences similar to mine when it comes to my perfectionism OCD so I was wondering if anyone had any "uncommon" experiences.
I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but I’m currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYES😭! I can’t be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it won’t just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting “you are gay” like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian 😭😂😂😂😂. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I don’t even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry him😭 + I couldn’t bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I don’t enjoy this game again! I’m not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesn’t feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men
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