schizophrenia ocd

okay pretty sure i’m developing this now as it’s been a background obsession for a while. my brain keeps thinking of demons and a white witch coming to get me and i was lying alone in the dark and i keep seeing this white shadowy thing or if i see a glare in some glass or something my brain just says “the white witch is coming for you” and then i get paranoid about it because i feel like it’s something that somebody hallucinating/ delusional would think. and i keep thinking about really scary paranormal stuff which is so scary and then i’m wondering why am i so paranoid and scared about this because i don’t think it’s real but then i get scared saying that thinking it will get mad at me if i say it’s not real, and then i think it’s probably schizophrenia for me to believe this but then i get worried that it’s not and apparently if u pay attention to this scary stuff it comes for you and now i’m scared af. i hate that i used the word “it” aswell cos it makes it seem more real. because i don’t want to say it’s not in case there is something, but i don’t want to even believe this because i think it’s abit delusional and it’s like a PARADOX! and then whenever i start thinking about exsistential things it horrible because it always just goes back to me possibly have schizophrenia or developing it due to thinking weird stuff about the universe and my identity. and it’s bad because someone in my family has it and due to the diathesis stress model it’s more likely to occur when u have a genetic risk and prolonged environmental stress which i obviously have had now for the past 2 years due to harm and sexual related themes literally scaring the shit out of me :((( and i’m not at the age where it develops yet which is the early 20s so basically there’s still a chance and i’m scared now and don’t rlly know what to do cos i have a feeling the gene is triggered and now i’m just waiting for the symptoms to go fully blown and they’re already beginning. and i keep having this horrible feeling my hands are on backwards and it’s so scary and i feel like i’m having sensory hallucinations… and i get alice and wonderland syndrome where everything starts to feel rlly rlly fast (but i’ve had this since i was young, it’s just been abit more often recently) and i’m getting it more often and i’m just terrified that i’m starting to get hallucinations. I’m basically just venting so other people can feel less alone with this, not seeking any reassurance

Username: Brooklyn_99Brooklyn_99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I don’t personally think you have schizophrenia. I think your worrying so much that your overwhelmed, hypersensitive, and paranoid. If you look for something to worry about. You’ll find it. And any small change in emotions, thoughts ECT, you can attribute to that new fear. Do you have a therapist?

Username: blaze19starblaze19star

Date posted: 1y ago

@Brooklyn_99 i’m getting one soon, it’s true i’m probably hypersensitive rn but i’m not trying to figure it out sm, i just thought i’d share so people could feel less alone and relate to the fear ❤️

Username: TapDrumRollTapDrumRoll

Date posted: 1y ago

I love this! Yes I am flawed and may always trip on these crazy things, but I know I’m deserving of love and I love myself. I tell myself that some people have to live without limbs, or sight, or many other problems and they mostly conquer and live full enriching lives amongst people who love and support them. I too can live with these thoughts, as embarrassing as they are and make me feel awkward through the day, but I can still laugh and enjoy many things. Thankful for all the comments on here as well. We all think too much. Haha❤️

Username: blaze19starblaze19star

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymously Yes the only good thing about this disorder is that 1) once you get past a theme it’s kind of laughable and 2) you’re truly not alone and there’s always people who are able to relate to however scary u feel

Username: Dianaa_8274Dianaa_8274

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm actually going through something similar, when I was a kid I was extremely afraid of the devil and as I got older it completely went away. A few weeks ago it came back full blown and then I was like well shit what if I develop schiz and start hearing voices and seeing demons. My mind actually made a stupid complusion of trying to think in a scary voice. Luckily my anxiety has reduced significantly but when it was really high, i did experience derealization and it was so scary. I actually started seeing a therpist and he told me that people who are going crazy or have schiz, don't know that they do. He also explained to me that when your anxiety is really really high it changes the way you think and view things. Keep your head up, I know it's hard but just like all other themes have passed when we thought they never would. This one will too.

Username: blaze19starblaze19star

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous no i am so scared of the devil and demons too and spirits and anything paranormal. when i was little my siblings watched a paranormal movie and i remember i didn’t even watch it but i couldn’t even think about the title without experiencing extreme fear and anxiety because i was so scared of that stuff and just now i saw like a glare of light out of the corner of my eye and my brain went “ghost” and now i’m kind of on edge but i’m gonna continue haha. when i was younger my fears were defiantly to do with that but now i’m older it links in with fear of delusional thinking and developing psychosis and also sometimes my ocd voice starts pretending to talk in a different way aswell like a scary voice but i still know it’s ocd but only when i start worrying about hearing voices, atleast there’s people as cray-cray as me! oh look did a lil exsposure there 😅😅 but honestly we’ll get through this, at this rate it’s just annoying

Username: Dianaa_8274Dianaa_8274

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Roccoxx555 Hahah made me feel a lot better too! Before I found NOCD, I went to the psychiatrist and she told me I was borderline crazy and tried putting me on all kinds of meds. I really lost myself after that but finding this community didn't solve my issues but it made me understand myself so much better!

Username: blaze19starblaze19star

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous that’s so unfair, they should look into it more if anything when they’re not really sure what’s going on, i’m glad you’ve found out what’s rlly going on, knowledge of this disorder is the first stepping stone to getting better ❤️‍🩹

Username: Cassie21Cassie21

Date posted: 1y ago

Literally just had an instagram video pop about schizophrenia and am freaking out researching and reassurance seeking , bout to go try do something to distract myself

Username: blaze19starblaze19star

Date posted: 1y ago

@Cassie21 distraction is defiantly a good idea to stop compulsions

Username: al/mz33

Date posted: 4y ago

Does anyone have similar thoughts or experiences. My ocd has been really bad for around 3 years but recently around 3 months ago I realised that I started doubting everyone in my life no matter how good they are to me even my parents. Iv been feeling as if everyone is a robot hard to explain but I feel as if no one really exists and that I’m in a simulation and is the only person who realises it and that everyone I know is just waiting to get the opportunity to fk me over. When I see my self in the mirror I look behind me thinking someone is next to me only to realise that it was my reflection. I don’t know whether this is ocd or not anymore especially the fact that my mum is schizophrenic and bipolar anyone know what these symptoms could be?

Username: e.ileenm

Date posted: 2y ago

Schizophrenia OCD or fear of going crazy

Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about

Username: duckymomo

Date posted: 40w ago

fear of developing schizophrenia

anyone else have this? It’s like every sound I hear when I’m home alone i worry it’s in my head. I often feel like i see something out if the corner of my eye moving and it isn’t keep in mind my peripheral vision is messed up from astigmatism so it’s most likely that.

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