Just having a bad OCD day...

First my credit card fell on the floor at the coffee shop. I managed to pick it up with gloves, clean it with wet wipes and put it back in my wallet (usually I would try to wash it, but managed to just wipe and put away). Then as ai was throwing away the wipes and gloves, my glasses fell out of my bag, onto the floor. They were in the case so I ended up dumping the glasses on the table and discarding the case (but later found my good case that I've been looking for in my car since last year 😁). I later decided to get rid of the 3 bags of garbage sitting on my counter, went outside, and of course it was raining. I continued to the dumpster, and tried to throw it from a distance. One bag hit the dumpster, while the other 2 went in. I didn't want to get in trouble, so I picked up the bag and threw it in (despite that it felt extra contaminated), and removed the gloves I had on. I continued to enter my apartment and touch stuff (even though it was raining and water that was on my contaminated gloves could have gotten on me). I continued then to go clean my bathtub/shower/shower curtain. Right now I'm trying very hard not to start avoiding touching things and still working a bit about contamination in my apartment (I have chain type contamination OCD that is disgust based, not getting sick based). I hate this😭

Contamination OCD

Username: messengervlmessengervl

Date posted: 1y ago

I can 1000% relate and have the samd type of disgust based OCD. But I can also say with complete certainty that if you keep pushing through like you did by not practicing avoidance, it WILL improve. Taking those steps and advancing to doing harder things is how improvement takes hold. One strange tactic I found that has helped is trying to focus the body feels that come from anxiety as feeling like exhilaration. I do this by focusing on the "woah I just did that!" Parts of exposure. My therapist was very supportive of that and I found it so much easier to start exposures once I started implementing that.

Username: Erin PErin P

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve had days like that. So hard. Touch the easiest spot that you are worried about and accept the feeling of disgust and uncertainty about whether or not it is contaminated from possible water on you from your gloves. If you can do this it will help you touch more without getting overwhelmed. You got this.

Username: TR03TR03

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Happens all the time. I approach a trigger as positive as I can be but something always happens.

Username: --anonymously----anonymously--

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you for sharing. I hate this too. I'm also having a bad OCD day. I swear everytime I start my day with the intention to be mindful and practice ERP *everything* falls on the floor. This morning a fly was somehow flying around my bedroom and I hadn't pulled my covers back over my sheets/pillows... I resisted stripping my bed and washing/rewashing my linens so I guess that's a semi-win... I wasn't as successful at managing my many compulsions today, but I did prevent myself from doing 1 so I'm going to try to focus on that win for the evening and talk myself into having my dinner (pizza) without putting on gloves... I wonder how unexhausting my day would be without my OCD running me in circles...

Username: katee

Date posted: 5y ago

Hygiene ocd. Recently I’ve been plagued with constantly washing my hands and fear of contamination. My biggest dilemma right now is I used the washroom this morning and the soap dispenser was near empty. I was able to get a little bit enough to make suds and washed my hands. However after waking up and touching the milk container / making breakfast. I feel as if the germs from my hands may have gotten to the container. So I spilled it out and now I can’t stop thinking what it the germs are all inside my fridge now. Annnd it’s supper time and I’m suppose to somehow cook dinner for my kid ?? Ocd please go away....

Username: Sadstressedgirl

Date posted: 47w ago

Very, very bad day

I just took my 4th shower, maybe my 100h hand wash, I've done laundry twice, I had to clean my glasses a few times. I've basically spent all day on edge and getting tiggered, trying my best to ignore it just to get triggered by something else and spiraling. I haven't stopped moving for 12 hours and I'm not even done yet, my blanket is still in the dryer and I probably need to eat. I needed to clean my four "safe" cups but only managed doing one after not having anything to drink for three or four hours. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry and play animal crossing but my 2DS is dead and my charger is "dirty" and I just don't have it in me to clean anything else if I can help it. :(

Username: anaa

Date posted: 47w ago

Contamination ocd got worse

Today i started job of coordinator at a school. I wanted to come out of my comfort zone which is actually my room and i wanted to come in the outside world. I thought i would get better if i spend some time outside but my ocd just flared up. I felt like the environment was not clean enough. I felt like people coming out of the restrooms contaminated everything. I felt the doorknobs and all the stuff was contaminated. Now i feel i am contaminated. After coming home i touched alot of my stuff which is also contaminated. But i cannot wash everything everyday so may be i would delay it to the day i leave the job which i dont want now. I want to do it least few months. I also have magical thinking ocd. I think if i get married and met my husband or his family in my contaminated clothes something is gonna happen and their house will be contaminated too. So i have to wash my whole wardrobe. I am feeling so anxious right now. Cannot do anything but sitting with thoughts

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