- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
IK!! nothing I hate more than when people say 'I'm soooooo OCD' like it's a quirky personality trait. LIKE if u say it in full 'I'm so obsessive Compulsive disorder'????? makes no sense does it. just being tidy is not a disorder? it's like those instagram accounts 'Satisfying OCD videos' OCD isn't satisfying, it's incredibly destructive, MY OCD ISN'T CURED FROM WATCHING A VIDEO OF SOMEONE LINE UP CRAYONS IN ALPHABETIC ORDER OF THE RAINBOW. Stigma is something that prevented me from realising I had a ocd SO as u can see nothing irritates me more!!!!!!!!
Allgood. I understand COMPLETELY. I thought I was a sociopath because I would have NEVER in a million years thought to myself (when the images in my mind first started appearing) “I may have OCD” because that was for people who liked things orderly, which I do but they’re not connected, it isn’t a Compulsion. Which is another thing NO ONE knows that when you are a “clean freak” OCD person you don’t just do it you do it as a result of an image in your mind and you don’t just clean the bathroom once you clean it 3 times. Etc etc. The stigma around this disease prevented me from seeking help for it for YEARS and has caused more damage than I will ever be able to explain to anyone.
Ugh ?
Saammeee. "I feel like that's everyone though" "everyone is like that sometimes"
Yes yes yess when I was young I totally disregarded it because of its stigma and what I thought it was so I didn’t think I was dealing with that until I read comments under a buzzfeed video abt weird things ppl do that’s when I finally looked into it more and I just think if I had known earlier from way younger it would have been more credible to my parents when I tried explaining to them that it was happening to me since I was a child
I remember when I caught a bad case of the OCDs.
Omg this is so true, I tried telling one of my friends and it’s exactly like that, and then they saw this app and they were like I need that! And it’s so annoying this stereotype of “OCD” that everyone says. I want that to end.
The tricky part is sometimes you might not know if they could actually need it or not bc you’re used to hearing ppl stigmatize it youre not sure if the symptoms they relate to might be serious
Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
For those of you in relationships with ROCD, do your partners know of your diagnosis. I am new to treatment and new to this avenue of mental health. I am generally pretty open and honest with my partner about things but the dark side of my mind I keep hidden. I’m scared to tell him about this if I’m diagnosed. And I’m scared that if I’m diagnosed and something real does go south in the relationship then my diagnosis will be used against me.
I never heard about people with OCD who have messy living conditions. Maybe this is why it took so long to accept my diagnosis. Although I really dont like how OCD is percieved at by the majority of people, I feel like Im weird or something because I dont fit into that stereotype. I understand that a lot of people with OCD have this issue, but why do I feel so different? If anybody else has/had this belief, what helps with feeling more comfortable? Everytime my mom points out my room, and how its messy- Its like I feel so lazy and useless. So then I often plan out everything I was going to do, step by step, always having a reasoning behind everything, because logic always comforts me. When I start tidying up my room, I go full out (Sheets, Laundry, Clorox, Candles, Vaccuming, Then I start going through the guinea pigs cage to rearranging all of their stuff) Yet always somewhere after doing a few things, I start feeling disgusting and almost shameful of myself. 99% of the time I end up laying on my floor sobbing, noting every little thing about my room. How my furiniture doesnt match, how i would rather have solid floor like hardwood or vinyl instead of the carpet, usually things i cant change… and then barely anything gets done in my room. I start to have a meltdown and often dont take care of myself even more afterwards. A piece of me feels like my thoughts are just me being a spoiled brat and wanting everything i dont have- meanwhile others dont even have a roof over their head. The other piece of me is just tired, just emotionally exaughsted. Please comment any thoughts or recomendations to maybe improve motovation and attitude towards doing long tasks.
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