- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
IK!! nothing I hate more than when people say 'I'm soooooo OCD' like it's a quirky personality trait. LIKE if u say it in full 'I'm so obsessive Compulsive disorder'????? makes no sense does it. just being tidy is not a disorder? it's like those instagram accounts 'Satisfying OCD videos' OCD isn't satisfying, it's incredibly destructive, MY OCD ISN'T CURED FROM WATCHING A VIDEO OF SOMEONE LINE UP CRAYONS IN ALPHABETIC ORDER OF THE RAINBOW. Stigma is something that prevented me from realising I had a ocd SO as u can see nothing irritates me more!!!!!!!!
Allgood. I understand COMPLETELY. I thought I was a sociopath because I would have NEVER in a million years thought to myself (when the images in my mind first started appearing) “I may have OCD” because that was for people who liked things orderly, which I do but they’re not connected, it isn’t a Compulsion. Which is another thing NO ONE knows that when you are a “clean freak” OCD person you don’t just do it you do it as a result of an image in your mind and you don’t just clean the bathroom once you clean it 3 times. Etc etc. The stigma around this disease prevented me from seeking help for it for YEARS and has caused more damage than I will ever be able to explain to anyone.
Ugh ?
Saammeee. "I feel like that's everyone though" "everyone is like that sometimes"
Yes yes yess when I was young I totally disregarded it because of its stigma and what I thought it was so I didn’t think I was dealing with that until I read comments under a buzzfeed video abt weird things ppl do that’s when I finally looked into it more and I just think if I had known earlier from way younger it would have been more credible to my parents when I tried explaining to them that it was happening to me since I was a child
I remember when I caught a bad case of the OCDs.
Omg this is so true, I tried telling one of my friends and it’s exactly like that, and then they saw this app and they were like I need that! And it’s so annoying this stereotype of “OCD” that everyone says. I want that to end.
The tricky part is sometimes you might not know if they could actually need it or not bc you’re used to hearing ppl stigmatize it youre not sure if the symptoms they relate to might be serious
I'm sry if this may make people worry or feel uncomfortable in advance! Hello everyone as u can see I struggle with ocd and I HATE IT WITH MY LIFE , it started in 2020 covid obv contamination ocd started here , I used to carry alcohol everywhere and used to wash my hands so much that it bled ( had to wear gloves to cover it so friends or family won't see it ) and everything else started since then , harm ocd with myself or friends I couldn't hold a knife..it was really hard..and I have unwanted sexual thoughts ocd , I have panic attacks bc of this..I sometimes cannot look people into their eyes and its so random and so scary..thoughts about.. 🍇..whether it's me or I'm gonna harm someone else uk..I sometimes cannot function properly.. unfortunately friends don't understand it rather think it's about " perfectionism "..I wrote those thoughts and stuff in a journal in more details ofc and doodle ( I'm scared someone will find it ) I hate myself tbh and I don't think someone will read this... I suspect I have ADHD with all this but ocd is " ur faking it " even though lots of people have hinted about it , I thought I actually killed someone for 2 years a girl..until I realized what HOCD is , I thought I faked my ocd too in fact , I have perfectionism ocd too it's bad and I HATE PURE O it's so DRAINING uk.. also idk if this has caused a problem for anyone but if y'all know the Truman show ( basically if u don't know the main character is being filmed and his life is fake and he doesn't know it ) THAT MOVIE HAS HARMED ME SO BADLY FOR YEARS that until today I have to check in the bathroom if there are cameras cuz like ocd makes me think I'm living in a fake world , I used to think people around me , everyone was like a Ai model or smth.. everytime until today I have to clean the toilet seat bc it may be dirty..I have been taking up to 5 showers a day cuz maybe I'm dirty..that's it for today tysm if u read this till the end I'd like to know ur thoughts if u got tips or have similar experiences ! 🤗 U get a chocolate bar 🍫 bc u earned it bc ik how ocd is so frustrating ( I also noticed everyone who has ocd is so nice right 😆! )
When I hear the others might think that they could also have ocd when I tell them I could have it or they want to say they have it after I’ve got diagnosed with, without knowing how I feel it is like why do I always have to have something and then they say they also might have it are they supporting, joking or what?
If you are anything like me (and most of you are, because let’s face it, we are all on this chat), you have OCD. Real OCD, not the organisation, matching colours everyone thinks it is. Real OCD. I’ve always known I was different, known that my brain does some waking things and deep down, I’ve always known I’ve had OCD. But there is just something that changes when you finally get the diagnosis. It makes more sense, you have an explanation for your behaviours. So naturally I told my friends. When they ask why I had to stop and step four times on a tile I said ‘oh, I have OCD’. I finally had a word, a tangible concept that I could explain to people. But nobody warned me about the massive misconceptions about OCD. Instead of support or acceptance, my friends seemed to question the diagnosis saying ‘that’s not ocd, don’t you just like things organised?’. And no matter how much I explain it they don’t seem to get it. And that’s the part that feels so cruel. I go through hell in my head and it can all be reduced to a phrase of ‘oh, aren’t you organised’. So please be careful out there you guys, and if someone try’s to downplay your experience, know that you are valid and that what you are going through is probably something that they could never handle. It’s a lesson that took me time to learn, but it’s important because our experience matters. Our real experience.
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