Is ocd only intrusive and unwanted thoughts ?

@jojoland because i feel like i bring the thoughts to myself by my overthinking and anxiety

@roselyn04 Aww no no! That’s exactly what this disease is, it’s that you go “oh my gosh what if I am this person” or you go “you can’t have this thought” and obv your brain will think of it. Is that what you mean? If not try explain and give examples more so I can help :) I struggle horrifically with this theme

@roselyn04 Are you asking if it’s OCD or if these thoughts are real? I’m a bit confused :)

@jojoland basically i’ve been starting to doubt wether i had ocd all along because i noticed that it was me who constantly brought up the worries like i would create them in my head basically like overthinking or anxiety like if you don’t get a text back from someone ur like no it’s ok they’re just busy but then u start bringing all these thoughts upon urself like no but what if they’re ignoring me that’s basically what i would do or whenever i would do the “compulsions” it will start off as something i voluntarily think that i should do in order to test myself

@roselyn04 I completely understand, I have this too. I get so anxious that I am this person that I cause the thought because I’m trying so hard not to have it kind of thing. Or I go like “these ppl have these thoughts, what if I do, ah here’s a thought now” if that makes sense. I thought at the beginning I was self sabotaging myself, and im still not 100% sure it is ocd. But I feel like I make all my problems and sadness like I feel like my brain wants me to be sad. I’ve had obsession about friends and boyfriends etc. I discovered mine was OCD with this theme because doing compulsions would give me such relief, I would feel much better and it would be a cycle kind of thing and uts gotten much worse because of the compulsions. I often test myself, or watch a vid innocently and then I’m like ah did I have this thought, I didn’t and then I would if that makes sense at all!:)

@jojoland yes that makes makes sense (: for me for example my “pocd” started as me fearing that what i felt was sexual i later came to find out that it was like a groinal response and from there on i started adding all these thoughts like what if it is sexual and i’m not allowing myself to fully feel it or what if i’m into sexual things with children like i felt like i was picking out all of these possibilities before i could make sure i was a good person so idk if that is ocd

@roselyn04 Another thing is I always am scared I just want to be poorly? Do you know what I mean? Like at first I genuinely thought I was just addicted to stress and have to have something to stress about always. It could still be that! I don’t know, the compulsions make me doubt it but it’s a thing I freak out about

@jojoland no yes i totally understand it confuses me a lot as well may i know what compulsions do you have ? i know i’ve had many different ones

@roselyn04 and then that’s when i’d test myself

@roselyn04 Ofc. Mine mostly revolve around mental checking - I look at the past, I reassure myself, I go over and over the reality. I have reassurance as well, friends and family. I used to thought block and replace with positive thoughts. I had A HORRIBLE compulsion of googling, but it’s got a lot better now.

@jojoland i’m very glad it’s gotten better ❤️ i used to google a lot as well it’s gotten better too

@roselyn04 My POCD has got so so much worse recently! This theme is so so so hard sadly :( I hate it.

@jojoland i’m so sorry about that would you like to talk about it ? we can exchange social medias so we can talk more comfortably about this if you’d like !

@roselyn04 That would be so great, what’s your insta? I’m in the UK so I have to go to bed now but I would love to talk to u tomorrow :)

@jojoland okk sounds good my insta is cherrykiloz

@roselyn04 Yep! This is exactly what I do!!! This is mentally viewing, I completely relate. I always have to check if I am a bad person, it’s a strong weird obsession with morals and principles

@jojoland so would you say what i have is ocd still ?

@roselyn04 I would say I’m obv not a licensed person but your desire to have that answer and the compulsions make me think you do. I didn’t think I did at the beginning and i tried everything to convince myself I wasn’t, but if compulsions make you feel relief short term wise and its like the automatic response and it sounds like it is. I would say yes :)

@jojoland i have heard compulsions are purely ocd so maybe you’re right ! i sent another message above i’m not sure if u saw it