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i’m having a big rocd moment and i want to confess so last night i was m*sturbating and i was mostly just imagining stuff, everything was okay, but when i was close to reaching the peak i opened a video and it happened to be a russian video. there was a girl and a guy and when i was already super close i imagined a russian person i know in the place of the guy in the video and it helped me come. i’m not super attracted to that person and i do not intend to sleep with him (even though at some point in my life i did) but i mostly just liked his voice and this harsh russian aesthetic. now i feel guilty and as if i betrayed my boyfriend because i thought of someone else while pleasuring myself. i feel the need to confess but i can’t judge if it is something major or not. i honestly want to hear if someone had anything similar to this and how you delayed or stopped the confessions.

Relationship OCD

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Date posted: 2y

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silversmith

Date posted: 2y

@Ciara306 if i were you i wouldn’t say anything to him. your anxiety is ocd related and if you tell him this story is likely to repeat. that’s why i’m trying to keep what i did a secret at least until i don’t obsess over it anymore. but you do you of course💕

paula109

Date posted: 2y

@idkkk I agree with you, these things are completely natural and you don't need to confess anything! There are more people that can atract us, and it's fine

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Date posted: 2y

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paula109

Date posted: 2y

Yes! And also, it would be better that if you need the urge to "confess" this to anyone, you tried to keep it for yourself, as it's a compulsion to reduce pain

silversmith

Date posted: 2y

anyone want to comment on what happened to me? lol

silversmith

Date posted: 2y

@Ciara306 i know it’s okay i just feel like no one’s talking about my story because there’s something wrong with it or i actually did something terrible

paula109

Date posted: 2y

I'm sorry too, I had just continued with the hashtag 🥴 You haven't done anything wrong! As we have said, it's ocd again trying to bother you and making you confess. I have also experienced something like this, because I was once having sx with my boyfriend and suddenly an image of a friend popped

paula109

Date posted: 2y

in my mind, and I felt really guilty because of that.

silversmith

Date posted: 2y

@paula109 it’s okay and thank you for sharing your story too💕

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Date posted: 21w

Question of curiosity

TMI!! Hey everyone, I was coming on here to ask if anyone has experienced this before! Im in an amazing relationship with my boyfriend so in this post I wanted to ask this question because this is how it felt to me! I remembered earlier today I was watching this movie, etc. and there was this spicy scene in it (iykyk) and it got me feeling some sort of way. This has happened before especially if I’ve played a game or watched a show with some content like this. I felt really in the mood and started to imagine my boyfriend and I doing those things together and I sort of decided to (yanno, the m word) hopefully everyone understands because I just don’t like saying the word😭, but I found that every time I do that, that’s when my ocd is at its worst/peak. Every time my mind has tried to convince me I’ve cheated, when I self pleasure. I get in the mood if I think of my boyfriend and I doing those things I see in movies, shows etc, and that’s when I’ll do it, But literally I realized after I’ve done that at times my ocd is at its worst because my mind will attack me constantly asking “Is this cheating? Does this make me a horrible girlfriend?” If I self pleasure, I also want to add that I mentioned it to my boyfriend at one time and he told me it wasn’t at all and that everything is okay, but constantly I feel guilty for it and extremely horrible. Just wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this?

brunom1000

Date posted: 19w

Rocd

What do yall do when yall think of past partners or other people during intercourse with your current partner. I ended up confessing that to my partner and it’s damaging the relationship or making things really difficult. Having a really hard time trying to control the thoughts. I even think of other people while with my partner. Any advice or anyone with similar experience?? Please

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Having a erection while simultaneously having bad memories of past actions

Hey guys I'm 17 years old I had experience with OCD I looked trans pornography and femboy stuff I'm straight I didn't jerk off to it I was really only looking at it in the past I have but for some reason I just felt like looking at it and when I did I did experience arousal not only that while I had a boner I simultaneously was thinking of memories and bad actions I had in 4th grade with another boy I myself not a homosexual I was a kid I did something with another boy I regret it I had that thought in my head lingering there in my head but I noticed pre ejaculation and now I feel anxiety because now it feels like I was intrigued by the thought it feels like it is it was probably to the video visual stimulus but it's hard I didn't jerk off to it at all I was really just looking idk what to do it feels like I did experience it to the video but also my thoughts say to the thought idk what to do can someone shed light on this

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