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The fact that you are so worried shows how much it goes against your morals. OCD is fuelled by the most outrageous things we could think of which is why it's so scary and we give it so much attention! It's just a thought and your anxiety is just a sensation. Allow the intrusive thought into your mind when it comes and it will soon become passive and boring. The more you react the more it wins and if you try not think about it it's all you'll think about. I know it's so much easier said then done but allow the thought and accept it as that is what it is. You're strong! Keep going!!
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No sometimes even people with out harm ocd have thoughts like that. It’s okay to have crazy thoughts sometimes as long as you don’t do then
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Harm OCD fuckes with your brain❤️ Dont worry, because you are writing in here shows that you are afraid, and that you wont. Even though it can feel like it, but thats just harm OCD
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Thank you ? I just feel so worried about it at times :(
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But it’s scariest because it’s got TRUTH in it. I can’t dismiss it
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I have anxiety about that stuff too you most likely won’t because you’re too worried and afraid of it now people who have harm ocd are actually the last person to harm someone
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OMG I’m so happy you said this. I have the same thing and it’s scary to cause the questions just keep going on and on and the feelings say like it’s true. But I realized that it’s not. Feelings past and who you are stays the same, I believe that God made me the way I am for a purpose and on purpose. The truth is that Jesus is stronger than death- He saves me from death when I tried to end my life. These thoughts are just gling to keep taking until you have nothing left. So stay strong, remember the truth.
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It wasn’t really an intrusive thought by the way. Like, it feels TRUE
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I know. I’m so worried I WILL though
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You guys are right. Thanks all of you, I really appreciate it! Ahhh it’s mostly just scary because in the past where I’ve dealt with harm OCD, the thoughts have been absurd and untrue. Whereas the fact that this one has a little bit of truth in it is what threw me off. But I know I’d never do it and I know it’ll be okay. I hope!
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- 21w
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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I’ve always struggled with maladaptive daydreaming I’ve stopped but I have harm ocd and my brain would hook onto a true crime story and I’d pretend to be a family member/loved one/victim of a k*ller and would make up elaborate stories abt it. That feels so disgusting I’m so scared this shows in a horrible person doesn’t it? And now my brain is telling me I have found k*llers attractive in the past I don’t think I ever did but what if I did I’m scared
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Guys I feel a bit bothered. I fear I liked a thought bc my sister was showing me this video about a robbery and right before she was going to show me I was thinking "no... tsk this is not what I want to see. Dont think of anything." But i had to watch bc my sister was already playing the video. I tried to not pay as much attention. I hate watching videos that have stuff related to harm bc ocd loves to latch on. I got so many thoughts. But when I saw the person pull out a weapon and the cashier jump extremely high, I felt like laughing??? But not bc of what was going on but bc "why did he jump like that? It was so high! You know what? I would've jumped liked this too. That's scary!" And then I felt angry for the cashier bc why do evil people commit such things? How the heck? But ocd says i laughed bc I felt a sense of superiority and liked seeing people scared and want to feel a distorted sense of power. Like.. no? I knew I felt like laughing bc I didn't expect him to jump so high and I wanted to point it out but decided not to bc the video is serious, and it's not a movie. But I feel kinda guilty like why tf did I feel like laughing. I didn't even smile or actually laugh irl but it's bothering me. Then my sister showed me some other video and explained a specific weapon and I kept getting thoughts like "ohhh i want that! I wanna scare people too! I want to test the thoughts to double check if i actually like them" And it gave me an image of me doing something crazy like robbing a store as well! AND IT FELT REAL! I WASNT EVEN WANTING TO THINK THIS! Im worried this means its real or that i enjoyed the thought and fantasized, but at the same time ik im not actually interested nor do I have plans but what if I WANTED to for those few seconds?! Bc why did it FEEL like I enjoyed it??? I know I wouldn't, i dont have plans to nor do i want to think about making plans and I'm genuinely not interested but WHAT IF??? Did i enjoy this thought?! It felt like I wanted to bc I didn't immediately reject it like usual and for some reason felt "happy" (i didnt smile or anything but it FELT like i was happy???) Literally right after the thought came i was thinking to myself "OMG is that true?" And couldn't focus on anything else! How do I know I didnt genuinely enjoy and dont have some weird sense of power??? It's been bothering me so much, this happened a couple hours ago and I managed to fall asleep in the middle of my compulsion of mentally reviewing how I reacted to my thoughts.
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