Hyperawareness OCD

hey, i’ve not seen this get talked about a lot? but does anyone get hyperawareness about the mere presence of thinking taking place? the fact that we have thoughts? that come & go and just the process of it all. It’s really hard, i feel like the hyperawareness is really with me. I get the way to deal with these thoughts/feelings is to not actively engage with them but even not engaging with them in the sense feels weird. I feel so alone in this, i hope anybody understands how i feel

Somatic OCD

MyLifeIsOCD

Date posted: 2y

Ive struggled with this one aswell! For a really long time, it was the most terrible thing ever! Searched everywhere online to feel understood but nobody seemed to have it. Later i found out more people have this theme! Im gald to let you know youre not alone!! For me it started after having an obsession, I was so afraid to think about it that i tried not to think about it, therefor I subconsciously checked over and over again if i still thought about it. Eventually i found out my fear couldnt be true, so i was no longer afraid of the obsession. BUT my brain got stuck with the checking of my mind, i had been so afraid of my thoughts that i was afraid i would never stop thinking about the thinking and checking if i still thought about the thinking. There was no fear for the initial obsession anymore, just for having obsessions in my brain and i got obsessed with the thinking, i couldnt stop thinking about the thinking, couldnt stop checking if still thought about thinking and if the fear that i would never be able to just think normally anymore was still there! Eventually, i tried to sit my fears and tried not to engage with it. Respond with maybe maybe not if youre afraid you will never stop thinking about the thinking, let the anxiety be there but dont engage with it! There is hope! ❤️ I feel there should be spread more awareness about this type of hyperawareness OCD, mostly they only talk about obsessions with body parts...

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Day23 oh my god? finally i met someone who understands this. I thought it was something else other than ocd and i was losing my mind over this. thank u so so much for sharing, i completely relate

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Day23 hey, do u perhaps have discord or something so we can maybe talk about this in detail? This isn’t me practising confession 😭 but i really want to let someone know how it feels and listen to ur experience in depth. (it’s completely fine if no)

MyLifeIsOCD

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 Hi! Im so glad i can help you feel less alone!!!! ❤️ This is ocd, I had ERP for it! For me, writing a worse case scenario about "what will happen and how your life will be affected if you would be permanently aware of your thoughts" and reading that over and over again helped me, also checking your mind on purpose every day for like 15 minutes for example helped me, maybe maybe not helped me, not engaging with the fears, just let it happen and still do the things you used to like, helped me! I dont know what discord is 🙈🙈, English is not my native language... You can share with me here! Im in intensive trauma therapy right now, so i try not to be on this app too much these weeks, in case i will be triggered. 😔 I would love to talk about it with you (but maybe I respond really late, due to my fear of getting triggered). I struggled with it for 1.5 years, searched google over and over untill a therapist told me it was OCD! Still truggle with it nowadays, but so much less than the 1.5 year before I did ERP and the year of doing ERP. For how long are you struggling? :( How did it start? :( Did you tell anyone? Did you have other OCD themes before that? :( How old are you, if i may ask? 😊 Youre not alone, for me it felt like my world was over, nobody understood me, thought my future was over, everyone was complaining about live while i was struggling with this useless OCD thing which was the worse thing that had ever happend to me, but i promise you (i dont want to reassure though) that it can get better! Its curable!!! ❤️❤️😊😊 For me its sometimes still there but it managable, i can live my life, my brain can let go off! Take care!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Day23 thank you so much you have no idea how much hope this gave me. I completely understand wanting to spend less time on this app that’s why i’m asking if there’s any other way we could connect? not to talk about this but other things in general because i feel really alone in this. I’m glad ERP helped for u and i hope it does for me too. I’m 17 btw:)

MyLifeIsOCD

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 There is so much hope, i promise!!!!! ❤️❤️ I hope ERP will help you a lot! It has NOTHING to do with you, but for me its better to not connect outside this app in case Ill get triggered and it will ruin my trauma therapy. 😔❤️ I try not to think or spend time on OCD related things now... 😔 Yesterday when I saw your message, I NEEDED to respond to let you know you're not alone! ❤️ You can do this!!! ❤️ Take care! ERP is incredibly helpful! 😘

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Day23 it’s okay! im proud of u for sticking so well with ur therapy. I hope we can talk here every once in a while. I’ve been struggling w this for little over 3 years but it was completely manageable for a while but it’s been getting worse again, ur comment helped a lot, thank u

Dee C

Date posted: 2y

Sorry you’re going through this & I can relate. From time to time the thought comes along saying ‘you’re thinking again!’ or ‘your mind is on your mind again!’. However I don’t go down the OCD rabbit hole of trying to figure it out why that thought came up. Rather I may respond with a ‘yeah whatever!’ In other words, I’m acknowledging it but not giving it any value. It takes time & practice to acknowledge the thoughts & not respond to the discomfort they produce. All while accepting the uncertainty. Hope this helps you!!!

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Dee C yess and do additional thoughts also come? like just the fact that you’ll always be thinking and u can think things u don’t want to think of? and that u have an inner monologue present etc?

Dee C

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 Yes. It’s like being lost in your mind and being afraid of your own thoughts. I also describe it as being given a brain without an operating manual. This is how I would describe my thoughts to the myriad of PDocs & therapists.

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Dee C YESS i’m so glad somebody understands. i thought i was going crazy 🤦🏽‍♀️

alex l

Date posted: 21w

feeling like my thoughts are too unique

for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldn’t call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because it’s not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. let’s say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like “why are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet before” (just an example). but basically it’s like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things i’ve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.

୨ৎ

Date posted: 19w

can ocd make you question your mental health?

i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔

May :)

Date posted: 14w

Hyperawareness of My Body

Hey there everyone, first I would like to say I am very grateful for every single one of you on this platform and it feels so much better knowing that I can be heard. I’ve been hyperaware of my swallowing for 1-2 month. I feel like I have so much saliva in my mouth and I have to swallow and swallow. I feel the urge to swallow even I don’t NOTHING in my mouth, so I just swallow air. This has been really overwhelming and I feel like I can be so easily latched to other body part of my part. For example, I was conscious about my blinking and breathing for a few days, and now I get so anxious when I heard a weird sound my ears make after each sentence I speak. Is this somatic ocd or health concern ocd? I am so helpless and having a hard time to shift my attention. Does anyone have any suggestions or just words of encouragement would really help me at this moment. I REALLY appreciate your help. 💗🙏 Thank you !

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