Justmesadly
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- 2y
Tired
So tired of ruminating 24/7 to try and figure out if I’m in denial or if I just have ocd
BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 2y
Hey. After a while I just decided that it the thoughts weren't going to go away so I may as well make it seem like I welcome them and want the thoughts. For ERP sake. I got one about POCD and I just did my best to shrug it off. It feels uncomfortable but it also beats ruminating.
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
The worst I've had in a very long time. I got over it 5 years ago and it's like it's come back with a vengeance
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@beckalouise I’m so sorry to hear this! Sending both of you a big hug. We got this
beckalouisebeckalouise
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@Anonymous It just feels like it's totally convinced me. The thoughts aren't there so much now, nor the anxiety.. just feelings? Does that make sense?
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 2y
@beckalouise Ugh that’s the worst
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 2y
@beckalouise Oh wow I haven’t heard of that! For me thé anxiety is relatively low. Mostly just ruminating
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Justmesadly It's horrible. Like I keep telling myself I don't want to be with a woman, but I just feel like I'm either lying or that it's just going to happen.
ButterscotchPuddingButterscotch...
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- 2y
@beckalouise Yes, this is me right now!! Sometimes the anxiety is there full force and sometimes it’s just thoughts, which is even scarier.
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Anonymous I've heard the feelings is the end though!!
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
- Date posted
- 2y
@beckalouise Yes I get this!
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@beckalouise Makes total sense! I’m kind of going through that as well - but I’ve had times were it was really severe and I felt 100% convinced with feelings and all
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@ButterscotchPudding My anxiety is the worst in the mornings!!
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Anonymous That's what I get like! Sometimes I feel so convinced with the feelings and other times it's like 'yeah I know I'm not actually this' it's fucked up!!
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@beckalouise The end of the ocd flare up?
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Anonymous I've heard the feelings is like the last part to actually get over if you get me?
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Anonymous How do you feel about being in a group chat? Maybe we could support each other?
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Justmesadly How do you feel about being in a group chat? Maybe we could support each other?
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@ButterscotchPudding How do you feel about being in a group chat? Maybe we could support each other?
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise Yes I’m going through this now
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise Same here
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise I would love to join the group
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@duane🍀 You going through what I'm going through?
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise Yes
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@duane🍀 Would you like to chat?
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise Yes
duane🍀duane🍀
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- 2y
@beckalouise Are you on Snapchat
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@duane🍀 I am!
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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- 2y
@beckalouise Would love to chat as well! Do you guys have discord?
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@Mamba24 I don't I'm sorry! I have Facebook?
duane🍀duane🍀
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@beckalouise What’s your handle
beckalouisebeckalouise
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- 2y
@duane🍀 x_beckaaa
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 2y
@beckalouise Sure! Sorry I don’t know why I didn’t get this notification
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
I’m going through a relapse after many months. You’re not alone, and we got this.
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous Me as well. This theme hasn’t bothered me in a very long time and now it’s probably as bad as when I was diagnosed
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Justmesadly Same! Everything feels so real and it feels like it’s impossible to stop the rumination. I tried to do more ERP but it hasn’t helped - debating if I should keep going with it or just do my best to stop ruminating
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 2y
@Anonymous Yep same here. I think maybe a little of both will bell
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
- Date posted
- 2y
@Justmesadly Help**
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Justmesadly Agreed!
RyanHRyanH
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
This is exactly me right now :( Mine has been difficult because I have extremely good days with zero thoughts or feelings and I’m confident about my relationship. But then they just hit me like a train some days.
jello86jello86
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- 2y
It's exhausting 😞
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Agreed!
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