I went to a gay club for exposure with my lesbian and gay friends, I was so triggered but I'm trying to accept it. It was a mix of clubs yesterday so there were straight guys too but I had no attraction towards them, while I don't know what I felt towards masculine women. There was also a stripper pretty much naked, I didn't feel sexual attraction but she has a really beautiful body.
Very proud of you for doing exposure!!! I’ve had the same thing before too!! And that was something I wanted to do but didn’t have time so instead I’d hold hands with my gay friends and just sit with it, I’d also watch tv shows that had gay couples in it like Greys Anatomy and it really helped me sit with it and be okay as time went on. I can now say that I feel a million times better and now I just hear the thoughts it doesn’t do anything to me anymore. so keep it up, rooting for you.
Thank you!! It's really triggering not gonna lie but it makes you feel powerful!!
I hope you can help me on my previous post… i wish i could ignore my triggers and fsce them head on like you…
The only way to beat OCD is doing exposure and accept the uncertainty, it's hell, but it gets better. I can talk to my gay friends and watch TV shows, movies etc again, I'm still deep into it but it's much better.
@dafne56 Its been making my intrusive thoughts feel so real all day... it was making me feel like i was "attracted" to shirtless men, giving me constant intrusive thoughts about how I'm "having a hard time accepting I'm homosexual"... it was making me feel like i wasnt attracted to beautiful ladies, and that i was noticing guys without shirts on and their bodies that this girl i liked was showing me...
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It was for lesbians too! So yes
it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
I watched the trailer for the movie “Am I Ok?” and got completely triggered. Basically a 32 yo woman discovers she’s a lesbian seemingly out of nowhere. I was triggers and did some research (bad idea) and apparently some people who are gay have never had romantic or sexual interest in people of the same sex until one spontaneous moment of discovery. Now I’m worried that this could be me!! I’ve never had a long term relationship, have had crushes and fantasies but back out when things get too close for me. I do prefer my little fantasy world guy but now I’m wondering if maybe I missed something and am in denial, even if I didn’t know it.
I keep seeing tiktoks of things that are like ‘things I did as a lesbian in denial’ or ‘things my not so straight straight friend said’ and I feel like I might relate to some!! But idk!! It’s kinda triggering me. I’ve had this 5 years on and off now so when it comes back the whole well you’ve had it so long you must be gay comes up. I have been with my boyfriend almost 6 years and i love him so much I don’t want to be gay (nothing weong with it - I’m just not and don’t want to be!)
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