I am really struggling today. I used to have tremendous episodes of ocd and learned how to manage it well. All the sudden it comes in in all it’s glory ! I have constant fears of hocd and losing control and I have to continue to fight against this. Any advice ?
Hey, don’t beat yourself up around your OCD returning in all its glory ! I did exactly this when my OCD returned in all its mighty a few months ago. I tried figuring out why, where, how….. but it’s pointless and only adds to ruminating and compulsions. The best advice my ERP therapist taught me was to think each time those thoughts appear “maybe I will, maybe I won’t”! This sounded barbaric at the time but it has literally changed my life and allowed me to be in control of my OCD again! OCD, loves uncertainty and will latch on to this, making many obsessive thoughts seem like a reality. I learnt to accept the uncertainty and this really did set me free ! You’ve got this, you can do it again. Keep going and please reach out for specialist support if you need it. Harm OCD- https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-harm-ocd-guide-to-ocd-subtype 15 min consultation https://www.treatmyocd.com/calendar?src=homepage&_gl=1*dpgbx1*_gcl_aw*R0NMLjE2MzY2NTk5MTQuQ2p3S0NBaUFtN09NQmhBUUVpd0FydkdpM0QwaEhYczN1Q0ZabWhVRUF4RndaaDJoa3AxbTRnek9TRWQweUJ4U3pqeU1SRU9FNGVwZkFSb0NNY0VRQXZEX0J3RQ..
@Billy 1 So do you sit with that uncertainty you may do these horrible things
@srpasqua Sitting with the uncertainty allows the anxiety to decrease. “Maybe I will, maybe I won’t” that’s what I always say to these thoughts now !!! It allows the uncertainty to be…….. uncertain. Sitting with this allows the thoughts to remain as thoughts and have no power. Hope this makes sense.
I have a harm ocd snapchat group chat. Add me and say "NOCD" if you want to join. Username: astrophsica
@Astrophsica Just joined thank you!!! I need this
This is common in OCD, you feel like you have it all under control and then bam you get hit with a wave of symptoms. The good news is that you have been here before- you know that it can get so much better. Remember the skills that help you to get through (hopefully ERP skills). And remember thoughts are just thoughts- don't engage with them. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/my-symptoms-come-and-go-is-it-still-ocd
Having a rough morning, can’t figure out if I’m gay or straight. I miss men. I used to know my orientation now I’m so confused. I know it’s ocd because every female I see is attractive but i just want this to go away. My ocd is looking for new ways to bother me for ex. I had the thoughts what if I get cancer or what if I kill someone but nothing bothers me except for hocd
Ok... I was doing good until a few weeks ago. I really was making a lot of progress until a few weeks ago. Backdoor spikes turned up and ocd came back with full force. Or at least I think it's ocd... I hope it is. My theme is hocd, by the way. I try to not give the thoughts much attention, but they're making me mad. It feels so real, and when I see coming out stories it just adds up, as if I should come out too. It terrifies me, every day I think about wanting to die, to not wake up, to cease existing. It's been so draining, and so lonely. I don't want to be in the closet, I don't want to have romantic relationships with women. And ocd makes me question why that: because of my morals? What if your sexuality goes deeper than your morals and you're just denying you like women? Maybe you should try it out, you'd like it. This scares me so. much. And the thing is: I watch same sex porn. It turns me on. I've seen on the internet many women actually watch same sex porn, but ocd makes me question if my case isn't different from other women. All the time I'm worried that I'll just lose control and kiss any woman that's by my side. I haven't had any experience with men either, as I'm reserved and a hopeless romantic (high expectations). I've liked men before, though, and I still have many crushes today. Ocd tries to convince me this is just a cover up. This is just destroying my life. This is daily torture, I can't imagine myself living with this forever. What am I supposed to tell my eventual boyfriend, my husband? How am I supposed to have children in this state of mind? What if some day I just snap out of this and actually realize I'm gay? What if this question is actually me already admitting that I am in fact gay? Honestly, it's too much. This was quite hard to write, and I tried to include here as much as possible of my insecurities. If you read till here I'm grateful. Just wanted to say that I DON'T have anything against gay people, even though they're making me very anxious since this all started, which adds up to my endless collection of intrusive thoughts (it makes me think I'm in denial because of some prejudice).
The past few days, I have been dealing with my OCD. My poison Self-Harm OCD. More specifically suicide. Now, I tell some people this, and they immediately get worried (Which is understandable), but what I am going through is the fear of doing the act. I don't want to die. A few days ago, I had allergies, and I thought I had the coronavirus. I starting getting nervous because people were dying from it. I can say now that I want to live, but these thoughts are SO repetitive and uncontrollable. Alongside with it, I have anxiety. Heart pounding anxiety (sometimes it goes to the extreme of panic attacks). I am not asking necessarily for advice, but I want you to know if you deal with HOCD, you are not alone. And if you don't know anything about this, well, you do now. ?
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