False memory OCD

Went out Saturday night with friends. Didn’t even black out. My bf was with me the entire time. I was dancing with my girls. A few guys came up but I didn’t interact with them. My OCD is telling me I kissed one and I don’t remember. I KNOW This isn’t the truth but my mind has made up the story that I DID in fact kiss them and in fact my bf will break up with me bc of it. My bf said I was fine, my gf’s said I was fine so why can’t I believe it. I’m trying to find videos from that night, anything to ease my mind. This is debilitating and all I want to do is sleep. Ugh, if I kissed someone I would have remembered it right?!?

Relationship OCD

Meggiemeggle...

Date posted: 2y

Seems your ocd is taking an active role to make you feel badly because you cannot get that thought out of your head! That’s what ocd does even when we know it is not true! It’s very difficult, I know! I have so many ocds that take over! Eventually will move on to something else. Try to do something you enjoy! Do you like to cook? Have a craft or activity you enjoy?

Meggiemeggle...

Date posted: 2y

I hope you feel better! Sending a virtual hug! You are strong!

Emily Soares

Date posted: 2y

I feel like this sometimes but about how "I feel when someone is around". I always make myself question whether I thought they were attractive or if I am attracted to them. It really is debilitating. I feel like it's been happening more and more.

olivia1997

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I went out with my friend on the weekend so a club and a guy asked me what my name was and I told him and walked away, now I feel like I’ve cheated on my boyfriend and I feel unfaithful and full of shame and guilt, I don’t know what to do, I can’t speak to my boyfriend as he wouldn’t understand and would take it the wrong way, I always feel guilty for finding other people attractive or talking to the opposite sex 😩

icedcoffee_

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi! I know this post is older, but did you ever achieve success with overcoming this intrusive thought? I’ve been experiencing the same thing you’re describing and it’s so debilitating 🥺

Anonymous

Date posted: 16h

@icedcoffee_ Yes! We are married now. My dad is actually the one who snapped me out of it and said life is too short to figure out if you did it or not. There is no evidence I did anything, I don’t remember doing anything and my now husband didn’t think I did anything so I went with that and the thoughts went poof hahaha

icedcoffee_

Date posted: 15h

@Anonymous Thank you for your response! I’m glad you were able to overcome it. I’ve been struggling and I just want ocd to leave me alone. There is no evidence for me either and I don’t have any memory of me doing anything, but ocd still bothers me about it. I’m so over it ☹️

Anonymous

Date posted: 15h

@icedcoffee_ OCD is the worst. It attacks what matters most to us. I’m so sorry you are going through this. You are probably thinking “evidence will come” or “I’m eventually going to find out I did something wrong”, truth is you won’t and you didn’t do anything. Just let it go! Like my dad said, life is too short to worry about the what ifs.

Anonymous

Date posted: 15h

@Anonymous Also, I would continually google and ask my friends for reassurance. Once I stopped, the thoughts went away after about a day or two

icedcoffee_

Date posted: 15h

@Anonymous Thank you so much for your encouragement 🥹 you don’t know how much your kind words mean, I truly appreciate it 🙏🏼

icedcoffee_

Date posted: 15h

@Anonymous Yes googling and asking for reassurance are my main compulsions too 😭 I need to fully put a stop to them

Anonymous

Date posted: 15h

@icedcoffee_ Of course! Time will kill the OCD and so will the work you put into not trying to find evidence

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