Family triggering me

Backstory- I’ve gotten over HOCD once but now it’s back … I haven’t told my parents that it returned Anyway, I was with my sister and my mom and my sister brought up how her friend was just diagnosed with OCD. Then my sister proceeded to say how I should talk to her about it. Then my mom asks what I have to do with OCD and I told her that my fear of being gay came back. She asked me “well are you?” Which was triggering… later on in the day, my dad asked me if I was lesbian or bisexual… I just want to cry now… them asking these questions out loud makes it feel real and now I feel like they think I’m gay… telling them I’m not gay makes me feel like I’m lying and I feel so sad about this

Sexual Orientation OCD

Roses2021

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Okay this EXACT thing happened to me when I first got HOCD intrusive thoughts. I was about 12/13 years old and out of nowhere was hit with the thought “am I gay?” I was young and admitted all of the thoughts to both my parents who reassured me that they would accept me either way but that didn’t make the thoughts stop…I constantly asked for reassurance etc etc. Fast forward years later and my mom asked me “hey remember when you were scared you were gay” and was immediately triggered once again. Part of my triggers and relapses (thoughts never realllly go away but can be more silent at times) have been that I had these thoughts so long ago and never knew why until I was diagnosed with OCD. This is the third time I’m in the trenches with this theme and am even in a great relationship with my boyfriend, totally sucks!

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

I have never related more. I remember I had a friend tell me I was gay or rather they suspected I had become gay because I wasn't crushing on any guy when they spoke to me. I panicked and called my aunt trying to get reassurance and I was reassured. But the thought never left me due to childhood experiences I had....

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

@Roses2021 Aww I’m sorry about your relapse!:( this is my first time relapsing and it’s so awful… I just want to be myself again … thank you for sharing your story

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

Hello while it is hard please just know that it is OCD. My OCD now for example tells me that I am in denial simply because of my faith and I am going to be one of those people that gets married because of so called faith and divorces their husband......which is not true and my faith has been the least of my worries when it comes to my sexual identity. Just know that ocd will throw things at you.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

Be ocd*

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

I have also been in the same boat as you with family and friends assuming my orientation simply because I was not dating people that they saw or knew about. Try to focus on yourself and get better

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous Thank you … irs just feeling so real these days ..

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@Mia Mia It feels the same way as well..but it won't ge ocd for nothing

dafne56

Date posted: 2y

Happened with a friend of mine too. I explained to her my hocd and now she asks me everytime if I'm a lesbian. Once I said "I feel nothing towards guys lately" and she replied with "so it's confirmed you're a lesbian". It's really triggering.

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

@dafne56 That’s awful someone said that to you …

Sb5

Date posted: 20w

Ocd relapse

Today is Easter and it was supposed to be low key for me and my family but my mom invited a family member that bothers my ocd alot and now they are on their way here and I'm freaking out I already had a panic attack (still having it) and my family is not helping either they keep making comments about how they just want one holiday with no problems and some other comments and it's like I'm sorry I'm not normal like my siblings I didn't ask to be like this now I'm just hurt, upset and I locked myself in my room for the rest of day. (And I was doing so good with erp and this is like making me have a ocd relapse)

Masc4lesb

Date posted: 19w

LESBIAN WITH SO-OCD

I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.

g_rangel

Date posted: 15w

spiraling again.

i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time

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