I let my health go too long and now I’m losing feeling in my feet and I’m not sure if me thinking I have diabetic neuropathy is ocd or a genuine concern... freaking the fuck out I have ALLL the symptoms n I’m pretty sure I’m diabetic because I HAVE been type 2 in the past but then allegedly it ‘cleared up’ in the past as well (I didn’t believe that doctor though) and ever since then I’ve gone years and years and years (10 years) being too scared to go get retested but thinking that I should... help I think I killed myself ??? letting myself go and binge eating fast food every single day because I’m depressed I live in an emotionally abusive house

Slow down! Your thoughts are speeding way too far ahead. There’s a few things you can do right now: - start eating better. That doesn’t mean totally changing your diet tomorrow, just making small changes over time. How about cutting your fast food intake in half next week? - make a doctors appointment. Get a check up and trust the doctors assessment. - get a therapist. This can help with your stress, your OCD, your depression, and dealing with any emotional abuse you’re suffering. Healing will take time (think months to years, not days to weeks). So be patient with yourself. I’m so sorry you’re feeling scary health symptoms and going through so much right now. Take each thing one very small step at a time. Focus only on the next small step. That’s all that matters right now.

OCD is so isolating. It makes all this so much scarier. But remember: you’re never actually alone. Everyone on here is experiencing the same kinds of things. We’re all scared. And we’re all going to face those fears anyways cause we won’t let OCD win.

I’m in the hospital right now, my urine was tested for diabetes and I do not have it :) they said that this does not make neuropathy IMPOSSIBLE, but it makes it unlikely :) I feel so much relief. After dodging getting tested again for diabetes for 10 years I feel so much relief that I do not have it and my blood sugar is very normal <3

Ever since the scare started about 2 days ago I’ve been eating better. I still have had a couple of ice cream cookie sandwiches each day, but at least no fast food and have eaten decent meals. No longer being sedentary sounds impossible and daunting though

Thank you ?? it’s really scaring me and I’m scared I’ll never fulfill my dream of being a runner now ??? bc I’ll eventually have to get my feet amputated... I always told myself that once I move out I’ll start eating healthy and exercising, which I KNEW I would keep my word about bc I HAVE done it before (I just ended up gaining the whole 55 lbs I lost back ?? I lost it when I was with my ex bc I was happy with him n I had just cut off a bad friend as well, so my self esteem was at sky high. But then when the time came that I knew I was gonna dump him, my family situation was right in my face again, n I just kept going ham on food n living a sedentary lifestyle, n I’ve never stopped n it’s been years now) but now I think I RUINED my whole future vision for a fitness lifestyle for myself ??? I wanted to do EVERYTHING: being a runner, a plethora of martial arts, get into soccer again; this IS my DREAM. I just can’t handle it on a mental lv right now but nonetheless it still IS my passion.. n now I’ve fucked it up for myself bc now I’m gonna have to get my feet and legs amputated ??? I fucked up my own life dream now there is no point in living

I looked it up and there is absolutely no cure for it, only progression of the disease

You have no idea what will happen yet. One step at a time. Get a doctors appointment and listen to what he says. I’m sorry this is so scary. Tolerating the uncertainty as you wait will be tough, but you can do it! Don’t catastrophize the future before you get a more informed assessment from a professional.

Ty for replying, it’s so hard to go through this alone

I can’t even feel blisters on my feet or anything, I can pull them off with ease and no feeling, and I can soak them in rubbing alcohol with no feeling- that’s how I know it’s diabetic neuropathy!! I looked it up and that’s EXACTLY why it’s so dangerous- bc it makes you unable to feel sores on your feet!!! I’m so scared!!! I’m gonna be an amputee!!! ??????????

I can’t feel it when I pinch it or anything or SLAP them

And I know that this disease is fatal!

I’m still worried about possibly having the neuropathy though... but thank god if I do it’s unrelated to my weight, I wouldn’t have to feel guilty

See?!?! Told you to take it one step at a time. You don’t have diabetes. You don’t have neuropathy. Resist continuing to ruminate over either of these and refocus on taking steps towards the life you want to have: make a diet and workout plan. Start small and slow but stick to it. Get a therapist if you can. Today is a good day!

Have you heard of behavioral activation? I think it would be perfect for you in this case. https://www.verywellmind.com/increasing-the-effectiveness-of-behavioral-activation-2797597

Checking it out now! (: