Just know im going to be pumled with intrusive thoughts the moment i step through that door and were alone, The thoughts and feelings that hit me are so real and frightening. I cant live like this Feels to real like i could listen and do it I hate the feeling of the realness it gives me i feel sick that i think im capable of such horror 😓
That’s the same way I feel , keep your head up ⬆️ and you will be fine . Pray to god , he bigger than any problem
Oof. I feel this. The intrusive thoughts are so heavy and the fear is real. Are you in ERP therapy? I know it's hard to push through, but doing some exposures every day around this fear will help you make progress. I'm working on my non-engagement responses when I have intrusive thoughts which is helping a bit, but it takes a lot of practice. I'm sorry you're going through this. You're definitely not alone in it. Sending support to you.
@ReadyForImprovement I booked my first session for tomorrow to see if this is ocd or if im just super messed up, the thoughts and feelings feel so real im doubting that i really could be ill 😓 Its so bad I hate being alone the anxiety and thoughts are so bad and relentless i cant relax with her anymore atall, 😓
You’re not alone. I have been going through a flair up the last few months. And my husband started a new project for work last week where he is out of town Monday through Friday for the next 6 weeks, and so it’s just my son and I. It’s super hard, but I’m looking at this as a time as a form of exposure therapy… I have been dealing with ocd since I was little, I used to worry about hurting my mom, now of course it has turned to my son… and just know that this will pass! I know in the moment it doesn’t feel that way, I feel the same way.. but it always passes. In a few days/ weeks or months we will wake up and be like “jeeze why was that bothering me so much? How silly!” Hang in there. Ocd attacks what we love most, our kids are our everything and ocd knows that. We’ve got this!
@Nina.V Thankyou for this💗 i cant wait for the day i wake up and can play with my daughter again with no worries, come home and have no worries, i spend hours trying to stay out the house as the thoughts and commands stop then, its so triggered when we are alone. I have my first session tomorrow really hoping it is ocd and im not a danger Im sorry tour going through this aswell
@Ocdlife123 People who hurt their kids don’t worry about hurting their kids, we love them so much.. you are not crazy and you are not alone! Something that helps me immensely is listening to podcasts of other people going through this as well. You can literally just go to podcasts and type in “harm ocd” and there is so many episodes to listen to! Therapy will also be great for you!
@Nina.V Thankyou i try to remind my self of this all the time, in the moment it all seems to go out the window though and ocd trys its best to convince you otheriwse, ohh i will try those podcasts! Thanku so much x
I'm so scared right now, I don't think my intrusive thoughts are intrusive anymore. I feel completely numb and disconnected from everything and everyone. I feel like I'm insane. I don't feel reassured by anything which makes me think I want the thoughts. for example I have harm ocd thoughts about my daughter and always have since she was born, she is now 9. I've suffered terribly with mental health since she was born. and an intrusive thought I have just had is "if I killed her i wouldn't be anxious anymore" can thoughts become this distressing? this can't be normal, please someone help.
I feel so drained, I’ve been having sexually intrusive thoughts about my daughter. I keep telling myself what if I did this or that and it makes me think I did do something harmful towards her when I know I haven’t. Ugh I hate my ocd it’s always playing with my mind and makes me feel like a bad mom :(
I had to leave my fiancee and 6 month old daughter because one day out of nowhere I had intrusive thought about hurting my child. Now I feel detached from her and afraid il hit her if I stay. This feels like my life is over...
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