- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
God please help me
This feeling won't go away. It's not OCD related and it's so hard to explain. It feels like I'm not supposed to be here, as in here. Just "here." It feels like I was meant to find somebody else that would be my best friend and my mind keeps repeating "soon." It feels like I'm going to exit my body, but it's not a physical feeling. I don't even know how to explain this feeling. It just feels wrong, and my explanation isn't even close to what in feeling. I don't know how to explain this, it feels awful questioning who I am "REALLY" and the fact that I'm "not supposed to be here." I don't know where "here" is, and everytime I try to imagine where I'm supposed to be it's always alone in a field of flowers or in an animals shelter that's deserted with me petting the dogs. Never with anybody else. Please help. I don't know what this is. I have nobody else to talk to this about. My parents always tell me I'm being overdramatic. I need to stop this. It feels like I need to do something. SOMETHING. Like walk around until I'm involved in a baking show, end up famous, meet someone I was destined to, or something like that. Or help a bunch of animals. This feeling is confusing, I don't need reassurance, I just need help to get rid of this feeling, or making it less severe. I will try anything. I feel so delusional, but this feeling goes away at random and when it comes back it feels like I need to fufil something, exit my home. I don't know WHAT. It's just something. My stupid brain never specified and I'm going crazy because I don't know WHAT it is I need to do.