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Everytime i listen to someones harm ocd story they always say they would avoid knifes or avoid driving or avoid being around certain people/places objects to MAKE SURE this intrusive obsession does not happen! I don’t avoid!! I still have to be around my animal, i still cook with knifes even though it really feels like im about to do it! I still keep the things in my house that im thinking of using for harm ( objects ect) I really dont understand why im not avoiding these things to make sure it doesn’t happen if i get the feeling or truly believe i could do it im about to do it! Please advice i just feel like i must deep down want to do it if im not preventing it from happening in anyway! I feel like i have no compulsions so this cant be ocd

Harm OCD

Username: WalterWhackstickWalterWhacks...

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, I think I can relate to your situation. I also do not avoid any of my triggers in my day to day life. But I think that is a good thing. To me I explained it this way: 1. I know that I shouldn‘t avoid triggers, as this would even increase the anxiety in the long run. 2. If I would avoid all these triggers, I would miss out on most of my life. It always seems like I got no choice anyway and I have to get through it this way or another in order to get better. I think you are very brave for not avoiding your triggers. It feels scary, I know for good, but maybe sometimes you may have the chance to see the effects of erp in your life through that constant exposure. I felt that after a time it got fairly easier to cut vegetables with friends or family. The thoughts were and are still there, but some days they really begin to feel just like ordinary thoughts. Hang in there! You got this!

Username: WalterWhackstickWalterWhacks...

Date posted: 1y ago

PS: and of course compulsions can have a million types of faces. Mine for example are mostly entirely mental.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Sometimes we can't avoid things as much as there a thought in the mind you want to avoid it like I live with my parents I can't chuck there knifes away 🤣but yeh I have had it 3 years I have not used a knife properly only in erp

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

for 3 years I don't even pick one up

Username: makeupandchinchillasmakeupandchi...

Date posted: 1y ago

Im not saying that your bad at all or shaming your for posting this, but I want to point out that 1. The harm thoughts create doubt in you 2. The harm thoughts create anxiety Those are the two qualifiers for what constitutes an ocd intrusive thought. And 3. Posting on the forum to ask for reassurance that your not a feared harmful person is actually a compulsion! So your good , you have all 3 criteria I would of course encourage you not to seek reassurance but we all do from time to time and you are in no way bad for doing it, I just pointed it out bcuz you said you had no compulsions and I want to show you you do! And it’s ocd :)

Username: Ocdlife123Ocdlife123

Date posted: 1y ago

@makeupandchinchillas Thankyou, i do try to not get reassurance but as you can see sometimes do with out realising lol, Just confused me so much why i dont do the compulsions other people do with harm ocd and why ect I appreciate this advice though, 🙌🏻

Username: makeupandchinchillasmakeupandchi...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Ocdlife123 It could be pure o as well! Have you heard of this before? Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) in which an individual reports experiencing obsessions without outwardly observable compulsions.

Username: Ocdlife123Ocdlife123

Date posted: 1y ago

@makeupandchinchillas Yea i have heard of this, im going to look into it more as i just keep getting told it can turn into psychosis and im afraid with the harm thoughts

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Hey y’all i need to know if someone relates to what I’m going through. I feel almost like if I wanted to act on my thoughts but I actually don’t because this doesn’t please me at all. So if someone told me “You have Harm OCD” I would be like “really? So I don’t wanna harm people? Neither am I capable?” I have no clue why would that be my answer when I haven’t desired anything. But somehow it makes me feel like I do, and consequently makes me feel like I’m in denial. So it feels like if an unconscious part of me wants to do it but I am just resisting. I literally can’t go anywhere, I don’t wanna live any second more, because I feel so disturbed all the time. I feel like I’m gonna end up doing it, I feel so overwhelmed by these feelings,thoughts, images, urges, that I would avoid everything, like going anywhere. I hate feeling like this but I feel like there’s no way back, i can’t picture myself being good in the future because I feel like “this is what i want” when it’s not. I feel like it’s a time bomb for me to do something. I do not tolerate this, every minute that passes by I feel it closer to happen. I feel like I’m gonna collapse and act on it. I don’t even know if that’s what I want, but I don’t think it is, I think it just feels like it. Help I don’t know what to do.

Harm OCD

Username: Privacyyyx

Date posted: 2y ago

Am i doing this right?

I have avoided knives for two years since i first started having ocd thoughts. I have only just educated myself on ocd and ive learned all about erp and stuff but i feel terrified whenever im near knives and today my mum wanted me to wash up and there was a knife in the sink and i was so scared, i didnt want to touch it or look at it and it made me want to run away i was so scared that id hurt someone and when i picked it up i felt like i was going to hurt someone and it’s terrifying i dont want to be like this. Is it right that i put myself in positions were im around knives? Like should i be avoiding them? I feel better when i avoid them but im starting to think its not the right thing to do.

Harm OCD

Username: lu22

Date posted: 1y ago

Really suffering a lot

Please reply, I know this can be seen as seeking reassurance but I think in some cases people need it and I am really suffering and am not in therapy or have ever been 😞 Is it possible with harm ocd that you can get use to the thought to the point you don’t get anxiety but the ‘urges’ can still be there? Or it feels like you ‘want’ to act on it or ‘like it’ or my head has literally convinced me that I like the feeling of doing that horrible thing and I get no anxiety when thinking about the thoughts (thoughts about smothering) and it’s stressing me out because I get no anxiety but it feels like I would suddenly lash out and do that and it’s because I ‘know how it feels to do that and enjoy/like the feeling of doing that/stopping someone from breathing with a pillow) I feel very upset and don’t know what to do, I’m carrying on with things but I’m constantly carrying this with me and I’m not stressing out over it every second of the day but I feel like I just don’t know what to do it feels so real and like it would actually happen and it’s ‘not the right circumstance for it to happen’ and Im just a mess and don’t know how I can live my life this way, believing this? It feels like it would happen or is inevitable and it would be because I like the feeling of smothering and it’s so horrible and I don’t know what to do I don’t even feel any bad feelings of anxiety or anything anymore but the other fake urges/feelings are there and it’s weird and I’m worried and don’t know how to deal with this

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